BEAT!! BEAT!!
Oh come on cheer me up...
Are you having thunderstorms in your dreams now?
I'm in flames. In flames!!
Friday, August 10, 2007
Monday, August 06, 2007
I seem to have fate with 9. say some.
I was born on the 9th. daddy too. And that koko who became me?
There’re 9 family members staying in my house.
My first love was born on a 19th, and we broke off on a 19th. (fate? Haha)
Today I found out that distracting monster was born on a 29th. Top secret revealed :P silly.
My best girlfriend is born on the 9th month.
My passwords usually have 9.
Now I count,,,,
There’re 9 young people in my life I can really talk to currently:
ying, ben, yeh, kim, joo, xuan, yen, jac, chuong.
Haha crazy me.
but anyways, 9, 9, 9. like 9, like me!! Hahaha :D
I was born on the 9th. daddy too. And that koko who became me?
There’re 9 family members staying in my house.
My first love was born on a 19th, and we broke off on a 19th. (fate? Haha)
Today I found out that distracting monster was born on a 29th. Top secret revealed :P silly.
My best girlfriend is born on the 9th month.
My passwords usually have 9.
Now I count,,,,
There’re 9 young people in my life I can really talk to currently:
ying, ben, yeh, kim, joo, xuan, yen, jac, chuong.
Haha crazy me.
but anyways, 9, 9, 9. like 9, like me!! Hahaha :D
Sunday, August 05, 2007
I seem to meet a ‘mother’ everywhere! Haha. At home, I have my dearest mummy. When I first came KL, I had Jane, whom most ppl hate, but can see that she really cares for me. In college, I have ‘mummy’. And now at LCMH, I have Mrs. Teoh! She sees the silliest & cutest me, and I’ve seen hers too, haha. I respect her, but at the same time can be very friend with her, and sometimes we talk like mother and daughter. today we went for a talk together, and there’s ppl who asked if I’m her daughter & that we look alike! Omg. Alike I dun think so, but Mrs. Teoh was happy and so do I. haha. Good boss :)
Mexen’s birthday. She’s 21!! Happy like what having a huge cake from Eugene! Haha!
Received a postcard from Yen sent from Melbourne! Hoho!
Finally met YC online again. For weeks we’ve been leaving offline boring msgs, and it’s much nicer to really chat! I can’t believe I’m actually having this weird 暗爽 feeling in me, but it’s so long since I felt this way again. There’s like so many things to talk about, but thanks to him I failed to do my work. Distracting monster. A nice friend to talk to is indeed hard to find,,,
HAPPY :)
Mexen’s birthday. She’s 21!! Happy like what having a huge cake from Eugene! Haha!
Received a postcard from Yen sent from Melbourne! Hoho!
Finally met YC online again. For weeks we’ve been leaving offline boring msgs, and it’s much nicer to really chat! I can’t believe I’m actually having this weird 暗爽 feeling in me, but it’s so long since I felt this way again. There’s like so many things to talk about, but thanks to him I failed to do my work. Distracting monster. A nice friend to talk to is indeed hard to find,,,
HAPPY :)
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Oh mien, it’s like there’re so many things to write yet there’s like no time to write!! Sad. July is really eventful and of coz, BUSY. Busy with life, busy with work, busy with friends, busy enjoying, and busy finding time! Since the start of july I’m like fully occupied and did not even realise that july had gone! Wow!
I intended to keep the Penang trip a secret, but I told them too. Haha. It’s worse keeping secrets eh? With two guys who’re like my brothers now, sometimes feeling I’m elder like jaga-ing two big men, sometimes feeling I’m younger being protected by two tall bodyguards or maybe being stupider is one of them? Haha. (whereas I always feel that kimkim is my big sister, haha) anyhow, good aeroplanes, best buddies!! Talking about the Penang trip, it was adventurous, as we explored on our own, but it wasn’t super exciting. Most of the time we’re entertaining ourselves rather than the environment entertains us. hmm..heh… well, the memorable stuffs were our walking aimlessly but with directions, our crazy singings, our crap-talking, our laughters, our bubbling, our pillow talk, our snores, and of course our crave and desires for NICE PENANG FOOD. We concluded that Kuching food defeated Penang food. Haha yeah!
Happy Kuching’s Day. I wanna go to the food fest…
1st August.
Mummy said it started off bad. Sejiingkat’s office is flooded by 2 inches!!
Daddy would have to pay my rent again.
Dee has a mini crush? Hehe.
Ben is gonna pia very hard for dentistry. 2nd option, doctor?? No way!!
CJ & Rong --- erm, enjoy school life!!
Kim gonna start class, joo starting new life, yeh busy working.
Gie leh? Apu~ I need motivation to drive on!! eLP!!
I intended to keep the Penang trip a secret, but I told them too. Haha. It’s worse keeping secrets eh? With two guys who’re like my brothers now, sometimes feeling I’m elder like jaga-ing two big men, sometimes feeling I’m younger being protected by two tall bodyguards or maybe being stupider is one of them? Haha. (whereas I always feel that kimkim is my big sister, haha) anyhow, good aeroplanes, best buddies!! Talking about the Penang trip, it was adventurous, as we explored on our own, but it wasn’t super exciting. Most of the time we’re entertaining ourselves rather than the environment entertains us. hmm..heh… well, the memorable stuffs were our walking aimlessly but with directions, our crazy singings, our crap-talking, our laughters, our bubbling, our pillow talk, our snores, and of course our crave and desires for NICE PENANG FOOD. We concluded that Kuching food defeated Penang food. Haha yeah!
Happy Kuching’s Day. I wanna go to the food fest…
1st August.
Mummy said it started off bad. Sejiingkat’s office is flooded by 2 inches!!
Daddy would have to pay my rent again.
Dee has a mini crush? Hehe.
Ben is gonna pia very hard for dentistry. 2nd option, doctor?? No way!!
CJ & Rong --- erm, enjoy school life!!
Kim gonna start class, joo starting new life, yeh busy working.
Gie leh? Apu~ I need motivation to drive on!! eLP!!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
my dear Yew Juin...
can you please stop giving me an emotional breakdown? You always cause me feeling so sorry when it's not really my fault but half my fault. i was so sorry but it was hard for me to apologize to her. i felt so bad :( how could you be so fast? it's just a few seconds i'm away! you cause a foebia in me, seeing you around. you won't know how cute you looked when you first came, the two of you with bald heads, looking totally identical, talking in your own world in your own languages. i got to know you both were ADHD and what an exposure i have! i spent 2weeks to observe you two and really sat down to just look at both of you. and i managed to finally identify both of you. nobody at school can identify you both yet, i feel proud to say so. but now i know, you both look so different!
you really can drive me crazy! i bit my lips so many times because i was so frustrated at that time and i couldn't hit you. i quietly scolded you "bulldog" in my heart, making use of the effective word CJ taught us. when you climbed the piano and stood up there singing so happily, i nearly died of heart attack. when you messed up the whole place and get me to grab the wriggly you to pack up my muscles grew by a few inches. when i see you putting everything in your mouth i nearly vomitted. when you peed and pooed at first i felt like spanking you. when you bit my butt my finger and my thigh, i nearly felt like strangling you. how can you just bite so easily? you just cant control!! but i've seen you tried and i know how much effort you've put to control that. you';re a total opposite of me here. i felt so much like biting that someone once last year, but i had too much self-control. i just couldn't put my teeth together to bite that flesh! sometimes i wish i was more spontaneous like you. but please...please...please...work hard!! we'll help you all we can.
however with all your mischieve, you always melt my heart in so many ways!! i wonder i'm really that soft, but i don't feel so. you're all just so special. you melted my heart when you suddenly come and hug me. you gave me a really wet kiss when we sang the song! you suddenly jumped on my back and nearly strangled me. you pulled my hand to see what you have made, i can't understand, but will appreciate it. you made me so happy when you suddenly speaked something out without knowing it yourself! i was so amazed when i actually heard you singing for the first time! the way you looked at me when i washed your hands. the way you said bye-bye like an adult in a manly voice. the longest 2minutes you managed to sit on my lap, singing and dancing with me. you looked at me for no reason and suddenly run and jumped up to just hug me so tight! how did you do that jump?! i fell down but was laughing out really loud. you monster.
whatever, monster. please just control...for the sake of a bumblebee...i love you...
can you please stop giving me an emotional breakdown? You always cause me feeling so sorry when it's not really my fault but half my fault. i was so sorry but it was hard for me to apologize to her. i felt so bad :( how could you be so fast? it's just a few seconds i'm away! you cause a foebia in me, seeing you around. you won't know how cute you looked when you first came, the two of you with bald heads, looking totally identical, talking in your own world in your own languages. i got to know you both were ADHD and what an exposure i have! i spent 2weeks to observe you two and really sat down to just look at both of you. and i managed to finally identify both of you. nobody at school can identify you both yet, i feel proud to say so. but now i know, you both look so different!
you really can drive me crazy! i bit my lips so many times because i was so frustrated at that time and i couldn't hit you. i quietly scolded you "bulldog" in my heart, making use of the effective word CJ taught us. when you climbed the piano and stood up there singing so happily, i nearly died of heart attack. when you messed up the whole place and get me to grab the wriggly you to pack up my muscles grew by a few inches. when i see you putting everything in your mouth i nearly vomitted. when you peed and pooed at first i felt like spanking you. when you bit my butt my finger and my thigh, i nearly felt like strangling you. how can you just bite so easily? you just cant control!! but i've seen you tried and i know how much effort you've put to control that. you';re a total opposite of me here. i felt so much like biting that someone once last year, but i had too much self-control. i just couldn't put my teeth together to bite that flesh! sometimes i wish i was more spontaneous like you. but please...please...please...work hard!! we'll help you all we can.
however with all your mischieve, you always melt my heart in so many ways!! i wonder i'm really that soft, but i don't feel so. you're all just so special. you melted my heart when you suddenly come and hug me. you gave me a really wet kiss when we sang the song! you suddenly jumped on my back and nearly strangled me. you pulled my hand to see what you have made, i can't understand, but will appreciate it. you made me so happy when you suddenly speaked something out without knowing it yourself! i was so amazed when i actually heard you singing for the first time! the way you looked at me when i washed your hands. the way you said bye-bye like an adult in a manly voice. the longest 2minutes you managed to sit on my lap, singing and dancing with me. you looked at me for no reason and suddenly run and jumped up to just hug me so tight! how did you do that jump?! i fell down but was laughing out really loud. you monster.
whatever, monster. please just control...for the sake of a bumblebee...i love you...
Monday, July 16, 2007
hmm...it's a nightmare for a person to remember you because once long time ago you dropped your bun on the floor and that person saw you pick it up and peel off the skin and eat the bun? thank god i did not blow it and eat it! mien, what a nightmare! well, it's nice having ppl to look forward to while chatting on msn. so far i have 7. it's just the happy feeling when you see them online, no matter you're actually chatting, or talking crap, or just having "the silence"...hah...
suddenly there's so much work to do...house, college, work, mind, friends... i'm starting to feel breathless... and i'm actually starting my individual & group assignments, and my piling reports!! and plannign ahead for arts & crafts for the children. and my lessons. and plans to release catharsis. at these times, i always think of the beach, and somewhere i can shout out really loud. i dreamt of myself crying last night, how stupid. but again, i dunno what's the reason. issit that it's so hard for me to cry that i had to express it in my dreams? that'd be so pathetic!! just cry it out, baby! BUT HOW?!
oh, help me help me...
suddenly there's so much work to do...house, college, work, mind, friends... i'm starting to feel breathless... and i'm actually starting my individual & group assignments, and my piling reports!! and plannign ahead for arts & crafts for the children. and my lessons. and plans to release catharsis. at these times, i always think of the beach, and somewhere i can shout out really loud. i dreamt of myself crying last night, how stupid. but again, i dunno what's the reason. issit that it's so hard for me to cry that i had to express it in my dreams? that'd be so pathetic!! just cry it out, baby! BUT HOW?!
oh, help me help me...
Monday, July 09, 2007
okie here i am with my busy life again. The first day of college was like: I'm a student again!! How nice!! and having carmen as your lecturer is really fun :) somemore i had my OAD results, Sam's paper!! everyone's nightmare...but incredibly i had an A+!! and it's my first A+ in Dika!! mien, how excited. how happy. how glad. how amazing! how...(whatever...all the good words you can put in now! haha) in a day, i had KimGary, Kenny Rogers & Asia Cafe's famous Lala & Clam!! wowh! bloated. and it's 070707. most ppl say 7 is a very good number. a good day for me though!
and today. gosh, elp!! we're having Sam again this sem. bored, bored, bored. i actually slept in class after the lunch hour. i tried to open my eyes but...I REALLY TRIED. the thing is, i'm sitting right in front of Sam. this sem both classes we had are small classes, consisting only the 10 of us! so duhh, damn obvious, Angie is dozing off. when i finally stared at the screen in front, she said, "you guys want a break?" i know it's tiring esp after lunch. you also know!! but thanx for indirectly referring to me. haha. sorry la.
tonite i get to online. at home! haha. thanx to FengHui actually. bcoz of her, i got to know my other 2 china housemates better. we went out for the great movie together, went shopping & ate together. i was with them, and realised that i had a little china slang when talking to them too. are our tongues so flexible? they said i speak my chinese well. HAHA. really?? they said it's hard to communicate with West M'sians. said they always cant understand. HAHA. thanx to CHMS1 then :) how i miss my old school days!!
got back in touch with an old primary classmate. he said suddenly felt like finding old frens. but how come i'm the first he found? haha. CJ gave my number without asking who he is! what a brother! he remembers me as "the family girl". wow. and all i can recall is his plump body and his name which is read differently in chinese & english. but he described himself as "i was on the heavy side before." interesting way to say it! hehe. nice feeling finding back so called "forgotten" friends. okies for now!
and today. gosh, elp!! we're having Sam again this sem. bored, bored, bored. i actually slept in class after the lunch hour. i tried to open my eyes but...I REALLY TRIED. the thing is, i'm sitting right in front of Sam. this sem both classes we had are small classes, consisting only the 10 of us! so duhh, damn obvious, Angie is dozing off. when i finally stared at the screen in front, she said, "you guys want a break?" i know it's tiring esp after lunch. you also know!! but thanx for indirectly referring to me. haha. sorry la.
tonite i get to online. at home! haha. thanx to FengHui actually. bcoz of her, i got to know my other 2 china housemates better. we went out for the great movie
got back in touch with an old primary classmate. he said suddenly felt like finding old frens. but how come i'm the first he found? haha. CJ gave my number without asking who he is! what a brother! he remembers me as "the family girl". wow. and all i can recall is his plump body and his name which is read differently in chinese & english. but he described himself as "i was on the heavy side before." interesting way to say it! hehe. nice feeling finding back so called "forgotten" friends. okies for now!
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
看男人，哈哈:D
这个星期搭巴士搭火车走路都不小心的观察到男人，完了。
可是那天就够衰了，火车很挤，那男的站我前面，脸还长得可以，衣服还可说称。看到他的包包，哇，形象跌了三分之一！要学潮流却学得这么失败！最惨的是，忽然他的手提了起来，天啊！股沟给我看到一半了！！差点晕到！真够丑啊，何必这样？裤子穿这么松，裤袋掉到大腿那，一点也不好看啦先生！
去健身房路程满长的，睡着了。巴士下来走上楼梯就一个男的拦住我，说了几句话，后来听到的就只有“你没有吓到吗？”“人家刚睡醒咧，先生。”后来继续说了几句话。他是做慈善帮那些尿失禁的。平时都不喜欢以这种方式做慈善的，竟然捐了RM10！算他魅力够好了，嘻嘻。不过那天是满开心的，睡醒有人都你笑，哈哈。笨笨的。
又一天回家路上巴士挤满人了。被挤到两个男人旁边。后来发现它们是一对的。一看就知道一个比较主动，一个比较被动。观察了几次都发现主动的那个长相比较看得出，而且是扮演男的角色；被动那个呢，长相都跟别的男人没什么两样，只是比较有女孩的心灵吧。他们有点含蓄的，却没有特别在意别人的眼光。说真的，很佩服他们的勇气。一路上他们就在我旁边，看他们也挺幸福的，至少他们都有彼此，不寂寞。我也跟着微笑了。又是傻傻的自己笑。
还有一天，在我旁边的旁边坐着一个红衣男人。恶心到不知该怎么说，他在floss 牙齿！那就算了，他还拿来嗅呢！没骗你，我当场鸡皮疙瘩！gelik死了啦！
有看到一对小情侣，看样子初二初三吧。“到家打电话给我。”小小就有电话，电话打来还接的有模有样！哈哈，现在的人越来越厉害了。祝福你们吧：）
回家时下着大雨，自然地手大部分是遮着头的吧。这男人却盖着双耳跑！我在后面有一点想笑。很坏吧？
可是那天就够衰了，火车很挤，那男的站我前面，脸还长得可以，衣服还可说称。看到他的包包，哇，形象跌了三分之一！要学潮流却学得这么失败！最惨的是，忽然他的手提了起来，天啊！股沟给我看到一半了！！差点晕到！真够丑啊，何必这样？裤子穿这么松，裤袋掉到大腿那，一点也不好看啦先生！
去健身房路程满长的，睡着了。巴士下来走上楼梯就一个男的拦住我，说了几句话，后来听到的就只有“你没有吓到吗？”“人家刚睡醒咧，先生。”后来继续说了几句话。他是做慈善帮那些尿失禁的。平时都不喜欢以这种方式做慈善的，竟然捐了RM10！算他魅力够好了，嘻嘻。不过那天是满开心的，睡醒有人都你笑，哈哈。笨笨的。
又一天回家路上巴士挤满人了。被挤到两个男人旁边。后来发现它们是一对的。一看就知道一个比较主动，一个比较被动。观察了几次都发现主动的那个长相比较看得出，而且是扮演男的角色；被动那个呢，长相都跟别的男人没什么两样，只是比较有女孩的心灵吧。他们有点含蓄的，却没有特别在意别人的眼光。说真的，很佩服他们的勇气。一路上他们就在我旁边，看他们也挺幸福的，至少他们都有彼此，不寂寞。我也跟着微笑了。又是傻傻的自己笑。
还有一天，在我旁边的旁边坐着一个红衣男人。恶心到不知该怎么说，他在floss 牙齿！那就算了，他还拿来嗅呢！没骗你，我当场鸡皮疙瘩！gelik死了啦！
有看到一对小情侣，看样子初二初三吧。“到家打电话给我。”小小就有电话，电话打来还接的有模有样！哈哈，现在的人越来越厉害了。祝福你们吧：）
回家时下着大雨，自然地手大部分是遮着头的吧。这男人却盖着双耳跑！我在后面有一点想笑。很坏吧？
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
又回到了这个不温暖的家。这几天，又要想念古晋的家了。
假期两个星期其实没做到什么，就真是尽情的吃喝玩乐追连续剧！值得赞赏的就只有我们突如其来的运动精神吧！有人一起跑步一起游泳感觉好幸福，虽然跑到一半就各跑各的了，虽然游泳喝到水还被宗英射水进我鼻子痛到要死想杀了他，但总比这里好，不用一个人搭远路去健身房，然后运动爽了又要搭那永远都挤满人的巴士回家。天色暗了还会心跳加速，一路上念着太子爷包庇。
回家的时候，曾经用多么多爱心苛护的心叶小树死掉了。它在那瘦瘦高高的透明杯子里证明了它四年多以来的强大生命力，努力传宗接代，生出好多个小小的可爱的小心叶。而我们呢，却还在爱情中摇摆不定。打开那蓝色的盒子，藏着很多小礼物和一些不知为什么会收的奇怪小东西。这些，应该就是初恋才会做的事情吧，哈哈，笨笨又单纯的甜蜜。这些都是以后想叙叙旧时的美丽回忆，把他们压到心里边的一个小小角落。
现在杯子时空的，留着的只有里面九、十颗小石头。因为习惯了它的存在，那天看到它死掉是有一点点的心痛。姐和我决定再找一棵，不要弥补过去，要创造新的未来！
假期两个星期其实没做到什么，就真是尽情的吃喝玩乐追连续剧！值得赞赏的就只有我们突如其来的运动精神吧！有人一起跑步一起游泳感觉好幸福，虽然跑到一半就各跑各的了，虽然游泳喝到水还被宗英射水进我鼻子痛到要死想杀了他，但总比这里好，不用一个人搭远路去健身房，然后运动爽了又要搭那永远都挤满人的巴士回家。天色暗了还会心跳加速，一路上念着太子爷包庇。
回家的时候，曾经用多么多爱心苛护的心叶小树死掉了。它在那瘦瘦高高的透明杯子里证明了它四年多以来的强大生命力，努力传宗接代，生出好多个小小的可爱的小心叶。而我们呢，却还在爱情中摇摆不定。打开那蓝色的盒子，藏着很多小礼物和一些不知为什么会收的奇怪小东西。这些，应该就是初恋才会做的事情吧，哈哈，笨笨又单纯的甜蜜。这些都是以后想叙叙旧时的美丽回忆，把他们压到心里边的一个小小角落。
现在杯子时空的，留着的只有里面九、十颗小石头。因为习惯了它的存在，那天看到它死掉是有一点点的心痛。姐和我决定再找一棵，不要弥补过去，要创造新的未来！
Thursday, May 31, 2007
people are unfair. how come those popular bunch of ppl can do anything they like and nobody will say anything? and we this bunch of ppl so humble so honest yet let ppl gossip?! it doesn't make sense!! i should say they are the 'exterior people' and we are the 'interior people'. the word 'feelings' is not in their dictionary. use your brains before you talk!! useless people #_# grrrR!
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
五月中凹谷
这几天情绪都很不稳定, 不知道主要原因是什么.
那个让我很烦的事不提了,烦烦烦!
那天深夜里,看了戏很累却没去睡觉,反而又开始近年来无聊就做的事情:看照片.几乎每一张照片,我都可以记得一小段故事.傻傻的对着那些照片发呆大约一小时,竟然还想把他们印出来!选了四张照片,就这么印出来,又继续发呆至少二十分钟吧.爸妈甜蜜笑容一张,我们五个青山岩一张,我们四个很开心的跟飞机棋玩拍照游戏,还有我跟璇的宵夜照.看来这几个人会是我永远最最想念最最珍惜的人吧.自从以前到现在,很多东西很多故事我就只留给自己,这样好吗?希望有一天可以说出来,即使都没意义了,但应该很多都是很好笑的笑话吧.偶尔回忆当年的自己感觉还真不错!谁会是我的幸运听众呢?
那晚我的一句"我不敢当",狠狠地打发掉一个关心我的人.他努力了三次,这次应该真的明白吧.维可说这个人已成功在我这留下了一些脚印,认识的开始也都这么莫名其妙!这个人太奇怪了,我的思想都够单纯了,大我六七岁的人还能比我更单纯阿?谈过恋爱九年的人,好像都还不懂什么叫做爱情.真幼稚.以后想起那种让人想呕又令人一点都不心动的撒娇声应该会很好笑吧.二十一岁,认识神经病的人,有神经病的体验.现在聊天就真的无聊了,之前还可以每天骂他笨,爽爽就不理人.我呢,学会耍人了!!成功的开始!
我认识的好女朋友好像都很强.除了姐跟晶,应该是我同类吧.她们好像都会帮我跟人算帐.初中变态菱够强,高中笑气姿够强,college四个都强,艳,璇也很强.我很老爷啊,无奈.跟他们在一起,总是觉得他们很大姐,而我只是一个笨蛋妹妹.不过曾经在college拜五晚上我缺席了,下课后那几个连续打来跟我说的话,感动了.让我觉得自己在某些方面呢,也很大姐吧!哈哈.只是她们的是显性,而我的是隐性的.
有人告诉我说没有爱情就活不下去了,这么惨吗?我都活过来了嘛,呵呵.只是可能因为曾经爱过了,所以难免偶尔觉得很渴吧...渴望爱一个人,渴望被一个人爱.爱情这么伤,不过还是想再次陷入爱情网里边.不怕死.有人说要找一个爱你比你爱他多的人,但自己没有很爱很爱他又有什么用咧?爱情有没有可能爱得平等?爱情很笨蛋.爱情也让人笨蛋.但世界上几乎每个人都喜欢做笨蛋!!
已经好一段时间没自己吃过了,今晚又要自己吃.我,开始想家了.每次倒数回家期间都特别想家的bo...
那个让我很烦的事不提了,烦烦烦!
那天深夜里,看了戏很累却没去睡觉,反而又开始近年来无聊就做的事情:看照片.几乎每一张照片,我都可以记得一小段故事.傻傻的对着那些照片发呆大约一小时,竟然还想把他们印出来!选了四张照片,就这么印出来,又继续发呆至少二十分钟吧.爸妈甜蜜笑容一张,我们五个青山岩一张,我们四个很开心的跟飞机棋玩拍照游戏,还有我跟璇的宵夜照.看来这几个人会是我永远最最想念最最珍惜的人吧.自从以前到现在,很多东西很多故事我就只留给自己,这样好吗?希望有一天可以说出来,即使都没意义了,但应该很多都是很好笑的笑话吧.偶尔回忆当年的自己感觉还真不错!谁会是我的幸运听众呢?
那晚我的一句"我不敢当",狠狠地打发掉一个关心我的人.他努力了三次,这次应该真的明白吧.维可说这个人已成功在我这留下了一些脚印,认识的开始也都这么莫名其妙!这个人太奇怪了,我的思想都够单纯了,大我六七岁的人还能比我更单纯阿?谈过恋爱九年的人,好像都还不懂什么叫做爱情.真幼稚.以后想起那种让人想呕又令人一点都不心动的撒娇声应该会很好笑吧.二十一岁,认识神经病的人,有神经病的体验.现在聊天就真的无聊了,之前还可以每天骂他笨,爽爽就不理人.我呢,学会耍人了!!成功的开始!
我认识的好女朋友好像都很强.除了姐跟晶,应该是我同类吧.她们好像都会帮我跟人算帐.初中变态菱够强,高中笑气姿够强,college四个都强,艳,璇也很强.我很老爷啊,无奈.跟他们在一起,总是觉得他们很大姐,而我只是一个笨蛋妹妹.不过曾经在college拜五晚上我缺席了,下课后那几个连续打来跟我说的话,感动了.让我觉得自己在某些方面呢,也很大姐吧!哈哈.只是她们的是显性,而我的是隐性的.
有人告诉我说没有爱情就活不下去了,这么惨吗?我都活过来了嘛,呵呵.只是可能因为曾经爱过了,所以难免偶尔觉得很渴吧...渴望爱一个人,渴望被一个人爱.爱情这么伤,不过还是想再次陷入爱情网里边.不怕死.有人说要找一个爱你比你爱他多的人,但自己没有很爱很爱他又有什么用咧?爱情有没有可能爱得平等?爱情很笨蛋.爱情也让人笨蛋.但世界上几乎每个人都喜欢做笨蛋!!
已经好一段时间没自己吃过了,今晚又要自己吃.我,开始想家了.每次倒数回家期间都特别想家的bo...
Monday, April 30, 2007
誰了解 ?
跟妈咪聊天。
一直以来，爸妈都不了解我到底在念什么。（伤心）
总是以为我以后要开幼儿园。（我却一点也没那种兴趣或志愿）
念的就只是怎样教书？（那干脆不念了）
做的作业报告只关于如何教书？（那就不用总是熬夜这么痛苦了）
考试成绩好像都不重要。（虽然要等四个月，拿到信封每次都急死）
跟很多人一样，有‘那种’想法。（我都懒得解释了，要怎么想就怎么想吧）
幼教不只是幼教。（这，只有我们才懂吧）
我不埋怨。（不过明明就在埋怨）
我知道我不是让爸妈骄傲的女儿。（不过我真的尽力了）
你不想伤害我，但我听得出，也感觉得到。（哭了）
其实我真正要念的并不是‘幼教’，而是儿童心理学里边的某个专科。（不过大马没供应，我没其他选择）
我还在努力找寻自己要走的路。（好像很难，要考虑很多方面，很烦。要勇敢，要加油。敢敢向前！）
高三毕业后，我应该跨对了这一步吧。（这只是开始，再给我力量！）
简单一点就好，为什么要这么不正常？
一直以来，爸妈都不了解我到底在念什么。（伤心）
总是以为我以后要开幼儿园。（我却一点也没那种兴趣或志愿）
念的就只是怎样教书？（那干脆不念了）
做的作业报告只关于如何教书？（那就不用总是熬夜这么痛苦了）
考试成绩好像都不重要。（虽然要等四个月，拿到信封每次都急死）
跟很多人一样，有‘那种’想法。（我都懒得解释了，要怎么想就怎么想吧）
幼教不只是幼教。（这，只有我们才懂吧）
我不埋怨。（不过明明就在埋怨）
我知道我不是让爸妈骄傲的女儿。（不过我真的尽力了）
你不想伤害我，但我听得出，也感觉得到。（哭了）
其实我真正要念的并不是‘幼教’，而是儿童心理学里边的某个专科。（不过大马没供应，我没其他选择）
我还在努力找寻自己要走的路。（好像很难，要考虑很多方面，很烦。要勇敢，要加油。敢敢向前！）
高三毕业后，我应该跨对了这一步吧。（这只是开始，再给我力量！）
简单一点就好，为什么要这么不正常？
Sunday, April 29, 2007
updates updates! i took leave to Genting with dearest yindeh...having to see my boss' long green papaya face. but who cares, haha. it's really time to release catharsis as i feel so stressed up in that little room of mine! well, it was kinda quiet, just the 2 of us...but we had a really great time screaming! haha. and thanx to yindeh who persuaded me to have a ride on the SPACE SHOT, omg. i still can't believe i actually went on that. but thanx for trying the Flume Ride with me..teehee! muaks~
back from Genting, workLOADS! deadmeat. but the 2 exams were ok after all, haha. and i managed to pass up my assignmt at 4pm sharp today! kena scolded by Devi, blebleble..hahaha...so what...her responsibility to keep the assgnmts leh! at least i handed in on time! feel so great. although there's one more last task to accomplish before i can truly fly!
My mind is already drifting to many many places...Gawai holidays family trip...then July trip with Joo & Yeh...August trip to grab ppl gok...or pending trip to Kuantan with Eugenia them...dates with Mexen...date with Cindy...date with YinRu, date with WaiLing...Saji, Christie...and the great trip to Taiwan?? and and and... wowH... thinking of it already soooooo FUN!!
back from Genting, workLOADS! deadmeat. but the 2 exams were ok after all, haha. and i managed to pass up my assignmt at 4pm sharp today! kena scolded by Devi, blebleble..hahaha...so what...her responsibility to keep the assgnmts leh! at least i handed in on time! feel so great. although there's one more last task to accomplish before i can truly fly!
My mind is already drifting to many many places...Gawai holidays family trip...then July trip with Joo & Yeh...August trip to grab ppl gok...or pending trip to Kuantan with Eugenia them...dates with Mexen...date with Cindy...date with YinRu, date with WaiLing...Saji, Christie...and the great trip to Taiwan?? and and and... wowH... thinking of it already soooooo FUN!!
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Bits n bits i've written this apriL... about NOW and THE PAST!
I used to take the longest time to finish a MENTOS chewy dragee in my mouth during high school, now I chew it just like them! Dunno how I can let it stay in my mouth so long last time!
I don't ever sleep, or even lie on my bed after a day out or if my body is just a little bit sticky or stinky! But this year I started laying my PVC mat to avoid direct contact. Now I can't bother. The sleeping mood just comes...and plop! There goes my stinky body on my bed!
I used to 想念，now I just 怀念。I dunno if it has a difference or whether it makes sense, but I do feel this way. And i INSIST, these two terms ARE different. (although they both means 'miss' in English. Ah, whatever.)
I used to be so the very quiet when I'm with strangerS, or just say friend's friends, now I'm a better chatterbox, or at least I can fit in. however it's only with ppl I feel comfortable with. Not my type means not my type, no interest to talk pun then.
I used to be so so 'humble' with bad words, now I spill out nia. But really, just once in awhile, when I'm really frustrated. Or sometimes for fun :P
I used to be very dependent on others, now I'm very independent, and I feel some ppl are dependent on me instead. No choice I guess. So I always go home to seek 'memory', to be a baby at home, pampered by those adults, and yindeh, forever. Haha.
I would never ever eat myself outside or go shopping on my own! But now I do, eating alone outside is simply just another tragedy in life. but shopping alone is FUN at times! Heh. Tend to buy more things actually.
I used to make myself forget the stuffs I like in the mall if it's considered expensive. Now I buy stuffs that I like, as long as it's not overly expensive. Though not worth the price, I still buy. Hoho. But after 2-3 times appreciating la... let money fly...
And something cheeky just to end it...heeh... I used to never think guys are handsome, really... but NOW...hehe..hohho.. they are somewhere around, OUT THERE!! cheers for the 'GREAT IMPROVEMENT'!! hoh.
I don't ever sleep, or even lie on my bed after a day out or if my body is just a little bit sticky or stinky! But this year I started laying my PVC mat to avoid direct contact. Now I can't bother. The sleeping mood just comes...and plop! There goes my stinky body on my bed!
I used to 想念，now I just 怀念。I dunno if it has a difference or whether it makes sense, but I do feel this way. And i INSIST, these two terms ARE different. (although they both means 'miss' in English. Ah, whatever.)
I used to be so the very quiet when I'm with strangerS, or just say friend's friends, now I'm a better chatterbox, or at least I can fit in. however it's only with ppl I feel comfortable with. Not my type means not my type, no interest to talk pun then.
I used to be so so 'humble' with bad words, now I spill out nia. But really, just once in awhile, when I'm really frustrated. Or sometimes for fun :P
I used to be very dependent on others, now I'm very independent, and I feel some ppl are dependent on me instead. No choice I guess. So I always go home to seek 'memory', to be a baby at home, pampered by those adults, and yindeh, forever. Haha.
I would never ever eat myself outside or go shopping on my own! But now I do, eating alone outside is simply just another tragedy in life. but shopping alone is FUN at times! Heh. Tend to buy more things actually.
I used to make myself forget the stuffs I like in the mall if it's considered expensive. Now I buy stuffs that I like, as long as it's not overly expensive. Though not worth the price, I still buy. Hoho. But after 2-3 times appreciating la... let money fly...
And something cheeky just to end it...heeh... I used to never think guys are handsome, really... but NOW...hehe..hohho.. they are somewhere around, OUT THERE!! cheers for the 'GREAT IMPROVEMENT'!! hoh.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
i wish i was simpleR!!
Mama's bday today, but she seems to have is “烦syndrome” every year on this day. Why wor? Mama always too stressed. Daddy called and asked me all about studying in Aussie. I'm so NOT SURE about everything. starting to be 烦 again. I really dunno wat I wanna study yet. Dun feel like taking education...but how to tell...but if I take others, dunno need study how long…dad said need tell him so he can count how much he can afford... ying ying... I wish I was simpler... like nobody understands. only talked to my boss about this. She asked me to specify in dealing Dyslexics. Good field and won't get crazy. Unlike always with Autistics will need to be normalized myself. And other fields I haven't surveyed yet also. I dowan to only stay at ECE wor. Phychology would be too wide a field, so I need to choose to specify in one or two. I'm still blur. I still don't know where I'm going. Feel so lost. How wor? Seems like I don't have direction. ishh, why so san-fu interested in such a course?!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Birthday moods, haha
10/4/2007 1:30am
Hoho, my 20 is expired!! Happy twenty-one giegie :)
So my birthday wasn’t that pathetic after all, haha. But having low expectations sometimes really better. Hehe. Happy happy.
Thanx to ying & mexen for your “zhao-sia” bday song. But love it.
Thanx to Bendie. Thanx to Daddy. Thanx to Mummy.
Thanx to Rong for the special angpao card. Thanx to CJ.(for fun, cannot leave out)
Thanx to boss. Thanx to Su. Thanx to kids, esp Yew Shwin & Zheng Yi & Afiq.
Thanx to all friendster friends.
Thanx to all msn friends.
Thanx to so the many sms friends. And caller friends & relatives. And weird friends. Haha. Oh ya, and thanx to DiGi for the reload bonus!
Thanx to Wang (and his friends) & YL & Eugenia for inviting.
Thanx to FengHui.
Thanx to kimkim for casting the spell.
Thanx to yehyeh & joojoo.
SuRRprises aLL the way…hohoho. Gotta sleep for reaL. Sweetdreams.
10/4/2007 11:07pm
Got a card from Edwin, and a silver rose brooch too. Wowh. And a big hug. Awww~~
And a sweet pink baby Tupperware tumbler from Alif with 3 Ferrero Roche in it.
I finally visited the gym again. Haha. And went shopping again too. Today I enjoyed time alone. Heh, really. Juz the time when all phones are put silent, and you just swing and walk on your own…enjoying your own sweet time. Until I forgot time to go home…aiyo…then see the dark dark sky and the black black ppl. Scary mien. Then no bus coming for so long!! In the afternoon after work when I went, I slept in the bus and luckily woke up right 2 stops before. I tot I miss MV liao. Wowh. Experiences in buses…loads mien!!
Hoho, my 20 is expired!! Happy twenty-one giegie :)
So my birthday wasn’t that pathetic after all, haha. But having low expectations sometimes really better. Hehe. Happy happy.
Thanx to ying & mexen for your “zhao-sia” bday song. But love it.
Thanx to Bendie. Thanx to Daddy. Thanx to Mummy.
Thanx to Rong for the special angpao card. Thanx to CJ.(for fun, cannot leave out)
Thanx to boss. Thanx to Su. Thanx to kids, esp Yew Shwin & Zheng Yi & Afiq.
Thanx to all friendster friends.
Thanx to all msn friends.
Thanx to so the many sms friends. And caller friends & relatives. And weird friends. Haha. Oh ya, and thanx to DiGi for the reload bonus!
Thanx to Wang (and his friends) & YL & Eugenia for inviting.
Thanx to FengHui.
Thanx to kimkim for casting the spell.
Thanx to yehyeh & joojoo.
SuRRprises aLL the way…hohoho. Gotta sleep for reaL. Sweetdreams.
10/4/2007 11:07pm
Got a card from Edwin, and a silver rose brooch too. Wowh. And a big hug. Awww~~
And a sweet pink baby Tupperware tumbler from Alif with 3 Ferrero Roche in it.
I finally visited the gym again. Haha. And went shopping again too. Today I enjoyed time alone. Heh, really. Juz the time when all phones are put silent, and you just swing and walk on your own…enjoying your own sweet time. Until I forgot time to go home…aiyo…then see the dark dark sky and the black black ppl. Scary mien. Then no bus coming for so long!! In the afternoon after work when I went, I slept in the bus and luckily woke up right 2 stops before. I tot I miss MV liao. Wowh. Experiences in buses…loads mien!!
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