跟妈咪聊天。
一直以来，爸妈都不了解我到底在念什么。（伤心）
总是以为我以后要开幼儿园。（我却一点也没那种兴趣或志愿）
念的就只是怎样教书？（那干脆不念了）
做的作业报告只关于如何教书？（那就不用总是熬夜这么痛苦了）
考试成绩好像都不重要。（虽然要等四个月，拿到信封每次都急死）
跟很多人一样，有‘那种’想法。（我都懒得解释了，要怎么想就怎么想吧）
幼教不只是幼教。（这，只有我们才懂吧）
我不埋怨。（不过明明就在埋怨）
我知道我不是让爸妈骄傲的女儿。（不过我真的尽力了）
你不想伤害我，但我听得出，也感觉得到。（哭了）
其实我真正要念的并不是‘幼教’，而是儿童心理学里边的某个专科。（不过大马没供应，我没其他选择）
我还在努力找寻自己要走的路。（好像很难，要考虑很多方面，很烦。要勇敢，要加油。敢敢向前！）
高三毕业后，我应该跨对了这一步吧。（这只是开始，再给我力量！）
简单一点就好，为什么要这么不正常？
Monday, April 30, 2007
Sunday, April 29, 2007
updates updates! i took leave to Genting with dearest yindeh...having to see my boss' long green papaya face. but who cares, haha. it's really time to release catharsis as i feel so stressed up in that little room of mine! well, it was kinda quiet, just the 2 of us...but we had a really great time screaming! haha. and thanx to yindeh who persuaded me to have a ride on the SPACE SHOT, omg. i still can't believe i actually went on that. but thanx for trying the Flume Ride with me..teehee! muaks~
back from Genting, workLOADS! deadmeat. but the 2 exams were ok after all, haha. and i managed to pass up my assignmt at 4pm sharp today! kena scolded by Devi, blebleble..hahaha...so what...her responsibility to keep the assgnmts leh! at least i handed in on time! feel so great. although there's one more last task to accomplish before i can truly fly!
My mind is already drifting to many many places...Gawai holidays family trip...then July trip with Joo & Yeh...August trip to grab ppl gok...or pending trip to Kuantan with Eugenia them...dates with Mexen...date with Cindy...date with YinRu, date with WaiLing...Saji, Christie...and the great trip to Taiwan?? and and and... wowH... thinking of it already soooooo FUN!!
back from Genting, workLOADS! deadmeat. but the 2 exams were ok after all, haha. and i managed to pass up my assignmt at 4pm sharp today! kena scolded by Devi, blebleble..hahaha...so what...her responsibility to keep the assgnmts leh! at least i handed in on time! feel so great. although there's one more last task to accomplish before i can truly fly!
My mind is already drifting to many many places...Gawai holidays family trip...then July trip with Joo & Yeh...August trip to grab ppl gok...or pending trip to Kuantan with Eugenia them...dates with Mexen...date with Cindy...date with YinRu, date with WaiLing...Saji, Christie...and the great trip to Taiwan?? and and and... wowH... thinking of it already soooooo FUN!!
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Bits n bits i've written this apriL... about NOW and THE PAST!
I used to take the longest time to finish a MENTOS chewy dragee in my mouth during high school, now I chew it just like them! Dunno how I can let it stay in my mouth so long last time!
I don't ever sleep, or even lie on my bed after a day out or if my body is just a little bit sticky or stinky! But this year I started laying my PVC mat to avoid direct contact. Now I can't bother. The sleeping mood just comes...and plop! There goes my stinky body on my bed!
I used to 想念，now I just 怀念。I dunno if it has a difference or whether it makes sense, but I do feel this way. And i INSIST, these two terms ARE different. (although they both means 'miss' in English. Ah, whatever.)
I used to be so the very quiet when I'm with strangerS, or just say friend's friends, now I'm a better chatterbox, or at least I can fit in. however it's only with ppl I feel comfortable with. Not my type means not my type, no interest to talk pun then.
I used to be so so 'humble' with bad words, now I spill out nia. But really, just once in awhile, when I'm really frustrated. Or sometimes for fun :P
I used to be very dependent on others, now I'm very independent, and I feel some ppl are dependent on me instead. No choice I guess. So I always go home to seek 'memory', to be a baby at home, pampered by those adults, and yindeh, forever. Haha.
I would never ever eat myself outside or go shopping on my own! But now I do, eating alone outside is simply just another tragedy in life. but shopping alone is FUN at times! Heh. Tend to buy more things actually.
I used to make myself forget the stuffs I like in the mall if it's considered expensive. Now I buy stuffs that I like, as long as it's not overly expensive. Though not worth the price, I still buy. Hoho. But after 2-3 times appreciating la... let money fly...
And something cheeky just to end it...heeh... I used to never think guys are handsome, really... but NOW...hehe..hohho.. they are somewhere around, OUT THERE!! cheers for the 'GREAT IMPROVEMENT'!! hoh.
I don't ever sleep, or even lie on my bed after a day out or if my body is just a little bit sticky or stinky! But this year I started laying my PVC mat to avoid direct contact. Now I can't bother. The sleeping mood just comes...and plop! There goes my stinky body on my bed!
I used to 想念，now I just 怀念。I dunno if it has a difference or whether it makes sense, but I do feel this way. And i INSIST, these two terms ARE different. (although they both means 'miss' in English. Ah, whatever.)
I used to be so the very quiet when I'm with strangerS, or just say friend's friends, now I'm a better chatterbox, or at least I can fit in. however it's only with ppl I feel comfortable with. Not my type means not my type, no interest to talk pun then.
I used to be so so 'humble' with bad words, now I spill out nia. But really, just once in awhile, when I'm really frustrated. Or sometimes for fun :P
I used to be very dependent on others, now I'm very independent, and I feel some ppl are dependent on me instead. No choice I guess. So I always go home to seek 'memory', to be a baby at home, pampered by those adults, and yindeh, forever. Haha.
I would never ever eat myself outside or go shopping on my own! But now I do, eating alone outside is simply just another tragedy in life. but shopping alone is FUN at times! Heh. Tend to buy more things actually.
I used to make myself forget the stuffs I like in the mall if it's considered expensive. Now I buy stuffs that I like, as long as it's not overly expensive. Though not worth the price, I still buy. Hoho. But after 2-3 times appreciating la... let money fly...
And something cheeky just to end it...heeh... I used to never think guys are handsome, really... but NOW...hehe..hohho.. they are somewhere around, OUT THERE!! cheers for the 'GREAT IMPROVEMENT'!! hoh.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
i wish i was simpleR!!
Mama's bday today, but she seems to have is “烦syndrome” every year on this day. Why wor? Mama always too stressed. Daddy called and asked me all about studying in Aussie. I'm so NOT SURE about everything. starting to be 烦 again. I really dunno wat I wanna study yet. Dun feel like taking education...but how to tell...but if I take others, dunno need study how long…dad said need tell him so he can count how much he can afford... ying ying... I wish I was simpler... like nobody understands. only talked to my boss about this. She asked me to specify in dealing Dyslexics. Good field and won't get crazy. Unlike always with Autistics will need to be normalized myself. And other fields I haven't surveyed yet also. I dowan to only stay at ECE wor. Phychology would be too wide a field, so I need to choose to specify in one or two. I'm still blur. I still don't know where I'm going. Feel so lost. How wor? Seems like I don't have direction. ishh, why so san-fu interested in such a course?!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Birthday moods, haha
10/4/2007 1:30am
Hoho, my 20 is expired!! Happy twenty-one giegie :)
So my birthday wasn’t that pathetic after all, haha. But having low expectations sometimes really better. Hehe. Happy happy.
Thanx to ying & mexen for your “zhao-sia” bday song. But love it.
Thanx to Bendie. Thanx to Daddy. Thanx to Mummy.
Thanx to Rong for the special angpao card. Thanx to CJ.(for fun, cannot leave out)
Thanx to boss. Thanx to Su. Thanx to kids, esp Yew Shwin & Zheng Yi & Afiq.
Thanx to all friendster friends.
Thanx to all msn friends.
Thanx to so the many sms friends. And caller friends & relatives. And weird friends. Haha. Oh ya, and thanx to DiGi for the reload bonus!
Thanx to Wang (and his friends) & YL & Eugenia for inviting.
Thanx to FengHui.
Thanx to kimkim for casting the spell.
Thanx to yehyeh & joojoo.
SuRRprises aLL the way…hohoho. Gotta sleep for reaL. Sweetdreams.
10/4/2007 11:07pm
Got a card from Edwin, and a silver rose brooch too. Wowh. And a big hug. Awww~~
And a sweet pink baby Tupperware tumbler from Alif with 3 Ferrero Roche in it.
I finally visited the gym again. Haha. And went shopping again too. Today I enjoyed time alone. Heh, really. Juz the time when all phones are put silent, and you just swing and walk on your own…enjoying your own sweet time. Until I forgot time to go home…aiyo…then see the dark dark sky and the black black ppl. Scary mien. Then no bus coming for so long!! In the afternoon after work when I went, I slept in the bus and luckily woke up right 2 stops before. I tot I miss MV liao. Wowh. Experiences in buses…loads mien!!
Hoho, my 20 is expired!! Happy twenty-one giegie :)
So my birthday wasn’t that pathetic after all, haha. But having low expectations sometimes really better. Hehe. Happy happy.
Thanx to ying & mexen for your “zhao-sia” bday song. But love it.
Thanx to Bendie. Thanx to Daddy. Thanx to Mummy.
Thanx to Rong for the special angpao card. Thanx to CJ.(for fun, cannot leave out)
Thanx to boss. Thanx to Su. Thanx to kids, esp Yew Shwin & Zheng Yi & Afiq.
Thanx to all friendster friends.
Thanx to all msn friends.
Thanx to so the many sms friends. And caller friends & relatives. And weird friends. Haha. Oh ya, and thanx to DiGi for the reload bonus!
Thanx to Wang (and his friends) & YL & Eugenia for inviting.
Thanx to FengHui.
Thanx to kimkim for casting the spell.
Thanx to yehyeh & joojoo.
SuRRprises aLL the way…hohoho. Gotta sleep for reaL. Sweetdreams.
10/4/2007 11:07pm
Got a card from Edwin, and a silver rose brooch too. Wowh. And a big hug. Awww~~
And a sweet pink baby Tupperware tumbler from Alif with 3 Ferrero Roche in it.
I finally visited the gym again. Haha. And went shopping again too. Today I enjoyed time alone. Heh, really. Juz the time when all phones are put silent, and you just swing and walk on your own…enjoying your own sweet time. Until I forgot time to go home…aiyo…then see the dark dark sky and the black black ppl. Scary mien. Then no bus coming for so long!! In the afternoon after work when I went, I slept in the bus and luckily woke up right 2 stops before. I tot I miss MV liao. Wowh. Experiences in buses…loads mien!!
Monday, April 09, 2007
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
今天在外面连吃了两餐寂寞餐。看着别人不是一整大群的，就是一对一对的，连自己都觉得自己很可怜。生活不知算充实或充忙...感觉上好像很多朋友，可是能在身边的却时常没半个。昨晚跟jenj聊，还说羡慕我很多很多东西。我有什么值得羡慕啊？这世上幸亏有电脑和电话。每天电脑就是我的最佳良伴，而电话呢，听到熟悉的信息声或电话铃声就会感觉很好，会猜是谁打来的。有时会有意外惊喜！然后就会兴奋到傻傻一阵子。哈哈。电话一整天没响的话，就会莫名的感到无聊。想象chris假如近期内忽然打过来，我会爱上他的。哈哈，做梦啦。陌生良呢，对不起。是不是在我找到适合对象前，曾经辜负几个人就要被几个人辜负啊？那就很惨咯。我要等到何年何月何日啊？干脆当老处女咯！不要不要啊！今年过年衣包包等很多都不知不觉买到粉红的，姿说我渴望爱情。我有吗？不知道。可能吧。爱过了就会总是很渴吧。可是一定要坚持找对人......我要幸福：）
Sunday, April 01, 2007
My April
What a start. Starting my April with pia-ing assignment. Blah. But got the chance to read lots interesting stuffs too. April always starts off with a day to fool, a day to pray, days to plan for daddy and mummy's birthday, then enjoy my birthday, and feeling a little bit more matured, and... let's see what's next! haha. Anyways, yeah! I'm coming to 21! I just feel that 21 would be a better year compared to 20. It sounds nicer too! Though I think this year there'd be fewer surprises than last year. And it's a Monday. Monday blues eh? Haha, I'll get my kids to entertain me at least. All will have to give me a juicy saliva kiss! Haha, but on the cheek! Heeho ^o^ My April it will be. Have a nice one!!
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