Just to release some tension, i guess :>

I’ve always been a baby at home..so dependent on all the people I love, but now I’m forcing myself to be brave..is this right?
I’m actually very scared to face all these circumstances alone…but how else can I act so as not to make my loved ones more worried?
I hate to make decisions, but realised that sometimes I’m actually making a lot of decisions on my own and behalf of others already, and they just follow without complaints. Thanx :)
I hate being the middle-person, but can’t decide on which side to stand on. Maybe i'm too greedy? I hate this me. but i hate conflicts more.
I have problems telling my feelings, but I’m trying hard.
I like my big hand and long fingers, but why some people keep telling me it’s unlucky? Please, you don’t have to tell me. Lucky or unlucky, I’m born to be.
Daddy & mummy is very proud that I’m born on the day I’m born, coz there’re special reasons behind…so of coz I like my birth date too. And my birthdays always seem to be wonderful. I love April.
I’m feeling so cold right now I don’t feel like writing anymore. Better sleep to have more energy to face new challenges tomorrow.
I don't know why i'm writing this, just spontaneously. And very out of topic. Haha.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I miss my best friends so much...
Life is so devastating without the bestest friends around...
especially during bad times...
Although you know that they're always supporting you,
but still, they're really far far away...
i wish i could feel their presence more...
which means i have to dream more.
aiyo...people ah...people...
why can people miss people so much???