Today i went Kenyalang alone, wanting to look for photo albums of 'my series'. really hard to find la. it wasn't in totally good condition but i was so desperate to get one, so i just bought it. then i asked if there's "HEART" a malay movie, which i felt like watching for some time already...got it. craving for my 菜包 at Yong Kwong, but don't have :( want to drink the 4-layer teh-si-peng, but dowan to drink alone. so juz bought a 叉烧包 and drove to school coz joo said he might be late. ended up reach too early, so went lunch with Wang. kena tipu pula, make me drive to Crown Square which is renovating, no food! so went Hock Lee to eat...hmm...

today, at 4th floor, when it's so quiet, i started thinking a lot again. aiks. i'm not so ready yet actually. i thought i was after cooling down for a few months already. i'm still not willing to talk about it with others, and chose to casually get thru it...let time decide their answers. yea, that's what i'll do, though i dunno which is better. why are things always not as easy as i thought?

Yay, i'm back home! i've been counting down since the 19th day! And once i arrived last Sunday, dad asked me when i'm going to KL again. i was so annoyed, and i refused to answer. "hey D, i juz got back!! and you ask me when i'm leaving?! dowan answer you lah!" then they all started laughing. in the plane the guy sitting beside me was kinda talkative, so i actually wasn't bored. haha.

back home here like got so many things to do, and so many activities coming up! it's already like not enough time!! some important things e.g. family trip has not been planned as this time it's near christmas & everyone seems to be busy... it's so nice meeting up with old frens again, especially the aeroplanes. we're even planning a pillow-talk-night already. one for 3, one for 4. green is not back yet. i'm really thankful to have friends so dear like them... again, muaks.

this time i come back, i feel a deeper love for CJ. haha. poor thing i think he's getting too much of nagging that's why he's so rebellious. dunno when will this cute brother grow up!! haha, he's taller than me now, and his voice is no longer the baby CJ! haha, but i like him more now. hehe. he's jsut as innocent as his silly sister, but uses his brain 69% less. kakaka. this Ben leh, hmm...shud say he's grown up now, and more jaga his sisters after having a gf! hmmm... i'm not too bad too, bringing his gf around today..hmmm... soon it'll be another distance relationship... good luck... it's just all so called fate. Rong is as irritating as before, so the very clingy and sticky and naughty and noisy. goodness sake, bear all the other kids but this little brother!!!!! haha.

today my eyebrows changed. ad tmr i might have a totally different look. it all depends on my mood tmr!! i just hope to look good. arghh...dowan to see a weird me...kakaka... i told them i wanna go to a saloon and say "i want a permed hairstyle that is easy to handle, nice, and must look young one." then they started laughing. why wor? aiyo...not used to look too matured la. i'm excited. and scared. but more excited.

Again I’m confused. Oh dear. In all aspects I seem to be (erm…lost for words…) somehow, there’s like too many decisions to make. Every little decision leads to a different life. I don’t know which things I should let go. Sometimes I feel that I make things complicated. Sometimes I feel that I talk a lot but never really expressed what I really want to say. Gosh, 〈遇见〉just played, once my so very favourite song. I think I can dream on for the rest of the day now…too many things in my head now, stars are flying all above. I need therapy.