this new year's eve was rather calm. i chose to stay at home. mum wanted to eat out, but in the end us girls decided to just get something from outside and cook the rest. have a nice dinner at home rather than squeezing with the crowd, finding for a place to park and sit! it was a nice feeling having your clothes stained with the smell of the cooking oil, the heat coming out from the pans, the sound and scent once you throw something inside the wok.... and guess mommy has forgotten how wonderful it is for mother and daughter to be in the kitchen, preparing dishes for the family... i really miss that though i never told her. last time at Kenyalang, there was so much freedom we could be so ourselves, in our long-long-connected-rooms. it was small but it feels more like a real home....
new year resolutions? i never had that tradition only when i was forced to write an essay about it. haha.
but this coming 2009, study smart, work hard, play hard!
a new challenge, a new me:)
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
my vacation 15.12.08 - 24.12.08
my vacation is over. 9 days. over. these nine days were so so fully packed, meeting all different gangs of buddies. really do miss them all!! even accidentally got to meet my ex-kids and get a few more extra hugs, haha.
为了给自己一个答案,我居然答应了见他,一直以来就是需要这种肯定心里才会安心.我自己决定自己放弃很自私不公平但我还能怎样...你说我残忍我想太多我逃避我不给自己机会.你才是,这么固执!我真的不会处理善后,但真心希望你会过得好好的.我真的很好很好.
meeting mexen and yen next was a really nice feeling i dunno how to explain. it's like back to w-3years back, being in subang. we had the craziest moments together, taking the silliest pictures but enjoying ourselves so much. it felt like we were flying when we're at the cable car, then walking along the bridge. until almost when it's coming back from langkawi, can feel the tense situation like few years back also. im again in the middle. but it was ok after we got back in KL again. phew.
那晚跟璇在Bintang Walk喝星巴克绿茶冰沙,聊到不知天不知地,感觉好像以前半夜和奶茶聊心事,很温馨.聊到不想回酒店了.半夜在那两条街上半夜漫步,一点也不清静,超多人的!我们手牵手的就像小孩很舍不得隔天就分开.很多很多的秘密就只有你我知道.因为告诉你感觉最舒服了.想念你了.
then i met mummy ju. i called her mummy, for the first time after she acknowledged herself as mummy to me. it felt warm, it felt nice. it's her who always gives me that hug, the firm firm hug. it's our only magic that works wonders. yes mummy, i'll always remember:)
and jamie, i've always wanted a little sister when i was young. but never knew you could click to me so well. haha. learn to be yourself, dont force yourself too hard. you're good for who you are!! i always feel so "old" when i talk to you, cos you always make me give advices like these.........
wai nee, inn shin, thanks for helping:)
then i met saji. staying at her house was a total new experience. i felt at home, and it's some kind of feeling i desire to have at my own house... all to yourself. though i do not understand what they're talking when they started their Punjabi lah. haha. best college friend now, and also first friend inDIka. dunno why did WL avoid all of us for no reason at all!! thanks leng leng for meeting in a rush. and it was nice of christie to bring us to Asia Cafe. i really miss that place. hoho.
then all nine days were just gone like that. so fast. im back in kuching again. and i lost 2kg. hahaha. exhausted.
为了给自己一个答案,我居然答应了见他,一直以来就是需要这种肯定心里才会安心.我自己决定自己放弃很自私不公平但我还能怎样...你说我残忍我想太多我逃避我不给自己机会.你才是,这么固执!我真的不会处理善后,但真心希望你会过得好好的.我真的很好很好.
meeting mexen and yen next was a really nice feeling i dunno how to explain. it's like back to w-3years back, being in subang. we had the craziest moments together, taking the silliest pictures but enjoying ourselves so much. it felt like we were flying when we're at the cable car, then walking along the bridge. until almost when it's coming back from langkawi, can feel the tense situation like few years back also. im again in the middle. but it was ok after we got back in KL again. phew.
那晚跟璇在Bintang Walk喝星巴克绿茶冰沙,聊到不知天不知地,感觉好像以前半夜和奶茶聊心事,很温馨.聊到不想回酒店了.半夜在那两条街上半夜漫步,一点也不清静,超多人的!我们手牵手的就像小孩很舍不得隔天就分开.很多很多的秘密就只有你我知道.因为告诉你感觉最舒服了.想念你了.
then i met mummy ju. i called her mummy, for the first time after she acknowledged herself as mummy to me. it felt warm, it felt nice. it's her who always gives me that hug, the firm firm hug. it's our only magic that works wonders. yes mummy, i'll always remember:)
and jamie, i've always wanted a little sister when i was young. but never knew you could click to me so well. haha. learn to be yourself, dont force yourself too hard. you're good for who you are!! i always feel so "old" when i talk to you, cos you always make me give advices like these.........
wai nee, inn shin, thanks for helping:)
then i met saji. staying at her house was a total new experience. i felt at home, and it's some kind of feeling i desire to have at my own house... all to yourself. though i do not understand what they're talking when they started their Punjabi lah. haha. best college friend now, and also first friend inDIka. dunno why did WL avoid all of us for no reason at all!! thanks leng leng for meeting in a rush. and it was nice of christie to bring us to Asia Cafe. i really miss that place. hoho.
then all nine days were just gone like that. so fast. im back in kuching again. and i lost 2kg. hahaha. exhausted.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
another christmas!!
looking at my profile pict right beside here, another christmas is already coming!!! last year 2007 i was excitedly exploring each malls in KL, comparing which has the most impressing atmosphere for christmas. and ended up i liked almost all as each of them gives me a different "wow" feeling. this year 2008, im creating my own atmosphere in school and my class, and trying to provide my kids with the most unforgettable xmas experience, and actually for the benefits of myself...these few last days in LL, i already miss them^.^ but... im still going to repeat last year's routine...hehehe...KL, wait for me!!! oh yah, and i just realised to be a handsome Santa, you really need the tummy!!! im still too thin for the costume. wakaka:D
12/12. again with departures. photo-shootings, huggings, kissings, partying and pressie-ing. it's my last day of official working day with the kids, and that feeling...so heavy. we had a meeting, when ms. tan gave everyone a mystery treasure hunt xmas pressie, unpredictably all handbags. from ms. tan??!! handbags mien!! so not her. and me, she said cos im leaving, i dont deserve to have one. she's been "bullying" me the whole day... until everyone got theirs, only she said there's another farewell gift. and there, i had mine. they all were expecting me to cry i think, cos they've seen me hugging the kids here and there the whole morning. but stiff-heart-angie, did really feel her heart pumping, beating faster and dripping inside, just that the tears usually are so brave they dont roll out. "issit good or bad" is no longer a question to ask, cos that's the inner uncontrollable angie.
but one thing, putting departures aside, i actually dont think i can really settle in one place for a long long time... it's always challenging to work in a whole new alien place, and when you finally get the smooth flow and the hang of it, it's time to leave and start a new life all over again. maybe it's because for the 3-4yrs i've been working, this has been my style. complaining is just to reease tension. but yah, i like new stuffs:) and i like what im doing. so yah, for the next 3years, i hope something special is waiting for me to venture!! a-boooo-kit!!!
12/12. again with departures. photo-shootings, huggings, kissings, partying and pressie-ing. it's my last day of official working day with the kids, and that feeling...so heavy. we had a meeting, when ms. tan gave everyone a mystery treasure hunt xmas pressie, unpredictably all handbags. from ms. tan??!! handbags mien!! so not her. and me, she said cos im leaving, i dont deserve to have one. she's been "bullying" me the whole day... until everyone got theirs, only she said there's another farewell gift. and there, i had mine. they all were expecting me to cry i think, cos they've seen me hugging the kids here and there the whole morning. but stiff-heart-angie, did really feel her heart pumping, beating faster and dripping inside, just that the tears usually are so brave they dont roll out. "issit good or bad" is no longer a question to ask, cos that's the inner uncontrollable angie.
but one thing, putting departures aside, i actually dont think i can really settle in one place for a long long time... it's always challenging to work in a whole new alien place, and when you finally get the smooth flow and the hang of it, it's time to leave and start a new life all over again. maybe it's because for the 3-4yrs i've been working, this has been my style. complaining is just to reease tension. but yah, i like new stuffs:) and i like what im doing. so yah, for the next 3years, i hope something special is waiting for me to venture!! a-boooo-kit!!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
any word that relates to "FRUST"!!!!
GKO is making me SO ANGRY!!! im gnashing my teeth. frustrated. irritated. infuriated. annoyed. maddened. exasperated. furious. enraged. outraged. cheesed off!!! and i wanna eat CHEESE!!!!!! why no cheese at home???
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
dreaming of you..........
i woke super early today, wanting to wash my hair...but i fell back, and there you appeared in my dream! i noticed you but was half hiding away from you, but you saw me and excitedly called me, then i was in a rush running off telling you that we shall meet again soon. sometimes i feel that dreams are really amazing, making a person so damn creative! well, in this case, does it sub-conciously reminds me that i'm missing you? actually i am... sigh sigh sigh. so are you gonna appear soon or will you keep me wait-wait-waiting? i grrrr u.
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