my treasure of SMSsss

dearest momma only started sms-ing after i came to KL, and she's improving fast! sometimes SO short-cut that u have to read over and over again to understand. well, i enjoy it when we talk through the phone using codes. hehe. all i have to do is "Mmm"/"Ya"/"yes"/"no"... and give little hints, then mama can interpret all. very 'keng' one. daddy and yindeh still need more practice, haha.

some of mummy's sms i'd like to treasure, but my phone memory is running out of space. so i'll save them here :) this point i'm like mummy, but i didn't record every one la. mum said she record almost all her sms le. and one day daddy was too free and decided to help mum delete messages...but got bombed instead!!! haha, kelian.

-- A mum is owes a mum care luv n anyth a mum can
-- got eat n eat what everyday have to care n woory 5 babies till one day 2 oldy pension got five time two care wa dream now
-- you a very smart know mum english actually know the word till too happy cant spell worry
-- Dont think hard now mum and dad are your best supporter advisor or what you think must record what you do will talk tonight

no punctuations. see if u understand. haha.

yindeh's...
-- dear Gie dont be sad, dont be discouraged. Smile like u always do :>n u will make it thru. (041124)
-- That's y lor!! U must learn2 stand 4 urself. I learnt that while in KL. Even i wan jaga u but cant b ur 24h angel u know dear. So u must 'seng muk' ok! Nitey. (050311)
-- Gie gie miss u la. N worried bout u 2. Now u cant even check mail..i hope ur college can online? It better. U very the brave u know. U are my new idol. Rest! (050912)
-- HahaHahaHaha I CANT STOP LAUGHING MIEN! Shot by a CAT??! Now that's the funniest thig i've ever heard mien Hahaa U really cheered me up mien! ((051217)

bendie's...
-- Gie ar gie...how's everything? Poor u...cheer up...me finally semester exam finiz liao...now rest 1st den awhile more wan spm liao...u jia you oh...(051029)
-- Nitez...slp wel n haf some rest...dun think bout it 1st...throw it away...haha...sweet dreams...(051029)
-- just finiz a nice bath...cool... 1 more month, gie... 1 ore month...wil be waitin 4 u...(051212)
-- (cute picture shooting) GAMBATEI give u power 4 everything!! Haha...jia you oh...(051215)
-- good nite and jia you oh...use e power i gave u...haha...try 2 slp earlier...sweet dreamzzzZZZ...(051215)

hmmm...these are the messages i treasure from home...just so sweet and encouraging during bad times. as for daddy, he prefers to call directly. mum too actually, but there are times when she plays sms. CJ ah, dun say. Rong, haha, always tell me he got surprise for me. then tell me all. haha. cute la him.

there're sweet messages from friends and bf too. but some will be kept confidentiaL!! hehe
miss u aLL and everybody at home ^^

The Kissing ‘GAME’

I thought I’ve escaped from the Kissing Monster at home, but I never knew I have more ‘keng’ ones here!! Believe it not, he can kiss everywhere, EVERYWHERE! I mean ANYwhere! Omigosh…just imagine, your neck, your back, your feet!! Worst thing is I felt so ticklish, and when I said, “Enough of these! Get off NOW!” “But I like you.” Worse came to worst, the 3rd or 4th party came by and just jumped on me. “No! this is my teacher!” “My teacher!” “My teacher!” ~~fighting, fighting~~ “OK, OK. I’m EVERONE’S TEACHER, OK??” So……the kissing game starts AGAIN, but with more monsters. Just got glued to the floor until really cannot tahan, then gather all my force to stand up right, letting the bugs fall to the floor and laugh to myself. Haha, kidding. See how my mood goes! Today I’m in good mood :)

Today, I looked closely at my hands, which are called the ‘tauhu’ hands. Haha. Remembered the days they suddenly held my hands to other friends just to touch my hands. Terkejut saya. Pengsan. But now, it’s so ‘kelian’. I feel the muscles growing with the fat, currently 2 small bruises from dunno where, 3 little pieces of peeled skin from toddler’s fingernails, 2 minor tooth marks from a naughty baby! It makes me envy yindeh’s hand now. My twin hands. Haha. And another thing, my hands always reminds me of papa. The spots (oki/otiam, whatever you call it) inherited from papa. More and more are appearing. Dunno when they popped out!! Hmm…daddy’s girl. I miss daddy.

How's your soul today?

Is there a day when you kept shouting for your soul-mate(s) but 'respond' has never arrived?

Today's a nice day until after exam, when i felt waist-ache, thanks to my diarrhea. maybe i was dehydrated and yet i only slept an hour. but i should say that last nite was some memories i got back as a student. me and WLing was sms-ing each other to keep each other awake. the funniest thing was that both of us ended up on the 3-minute toilet bowl. Saji & SYee drifted off first. haha. It's dreadful reminding ourselves that we're working ppl now. what a hectic life. often discussing life in university, rather than our tuition-like college. such boredom!!

now an amusing dream i have to jot down. in my dream there's another dream, me & dee were having the same dream, but it seems so real! This is 2/3 nights back. Well, to summarise, Ben was shot dead by a CAT! Ben's 1st response was, "choi ar!" and dee, "hahaHaHaHAHA...u make me can't stop laughing, gie!! you made my day!! but a CAT?! and gun??" okies, this made me laugh back. no choice. WHY? coz Ben kept spanking the cat and it finally acted up! this might be a lesson to teach Ben not to be so aggressive, and must have self-control. ok, it's just a DREAM. and noe wat? dreaming is good for you. i juz read about it. To 'o-lo' back the victim in my dream, i gotta say that he's became a sweet(er) guy/brother since he became a boyfren. sometimes his sms can juz cheer you UP!! thanx, Bendie :)

going back to reality. i have to go on with life which is not so life, i call it. especially tonite. i've caught a fever. freezing juz now. but it's assignment time. deadmeat. torture. it's slaughtering me with hideous cruelty!!!

holiday fever

my roomie find ne very cute smiling to my comp when i was chatting with my ex-roomie who's in US now. hahah, who knows? it just turned out to be so natural wad~ and these two days i've been watching so many episodes of NARUTO, coz i gotta delete the files to put in BLEACH. gosh, what's that anime power? the first episode of leach i was laughing so har already, especially when the silly dad was like about to drag the mom's photo down...hahaha

the one-week holiday has come to an end. why so fast?! haven't really enjoyed yet. but lazing around, YES. i'm so scared i can't wake tomoro, and be prepared to go back to work. oh no!! i was telling kim that she'll be first to graduate and be the working woman then! but was shot back that i'm now the first to start the working life. haihh~~

well, i've a good news today. i've found someone to countdown with me for 2006. hehe. must think that i'm crazy thinking so far ahead. i had to. it's so called motivation. i had to look forward for holidays, as sometimes i feel like a piece of deadmeat, getting dried up. CNY2006 is my greatest motivation!!!

concert day

suddenly i feel like time is running short and i've no time for assignments and reports. it's all due on the same day with my exam! but still, i'm as lazy as ever. why?! studying all day yesterday, then me & yen went to watch 'The Myth'. some parts were really funny. good for a break :)

today, it'll be the kids' concert. i'm feeling anxious coz i hope my class danced their 'Lenggang Kangkung' well. i actually promised them lollipops, which i bought after the movie last night. haha. they're all wearing very nice and eye-catching today, but teachers...aiii...it's named 'small-sized', but it's like XXL size. ngai ti. i wonder when's the concert for the kindy i was teaching before i came. i taught 2 dances. wish i could see them.

oh ye, i realised i have a habit of buying bisciuts and storing them. haha. so much i can't finish. okies, now i'm gonna eat the keropok my fren gave me as 见面礼。laugh till wanna pengsan that day. we haven't met for months. then next i gotta study and prepare to go to the concert :)

Nefeli

just some cutting & pasting from my sister's blog...like you said, when felt like writing, can't write, when it's over, you just won't feel like writing anymore.

I had a sponsored trip to KL the other day just to attend a 2-hours talk. It was a fabulous opportunity for a shopping excursion! hehe. not that i shopped much. I was just absolutely grateful that i would be a having a few days off-work, and also at the same time see my sister there. I miss her sooo much. This girl is one determined angel. She's working five days a week in a kindergarten and then going for lectures on Sat and Sun! I really don't know how she does it. It's passion. Her thirst for doing something that she loves. Sometimes she seems a little tired, but in the end she knows it's gonna be worth it. So she moves forward with a reason. Sometimes, i wish i could just borrow some of that enthusiasm from her.So it was really great that i could see her this time. Although it was short, it was nice. We did our rush shopping - why does time pass so fast when you're spending money - and then we settled down to have our late dinner at the Captain's Cabin. We decided to be adventurous and go for an Indonesian Oxtail soup. It turned out to be super yummmy. We also shared a Seafood Au gratin cos the portions seemed huge and we were only half-hungry. After that we just took a cab back to the hotel and relished in our half silly and serious conversations until one by one, both of us just nodded off into dreamland.

hehe...put up coz u puji me until so good. wahaha. i'm not so great, k? acting tough, haha. Captain Cabin's a nice place, if only we had cocktails that night! and that night, my backbones were in heaven. you should come on Christmas or New Year, then we'd have more time together, i had no plans for then yet. so bad gotta let you go shopping alone.

There's this weird thing about my youngest brother. It seems like he's born with this incredible hulk personality. Except that he's not incredible. He's just this little guy who can be a evil monster at times. Except that when he runs to you and pleads for a bear hug and slimey kisses that you just become weak at the knees and forgives him for all the mean things he has done. He's that good. I dono where's he's got those kissin' n huggin' genes from. Can't be from my parents cos me n my other siblings seem to be out of place with all the intimacies. It's just the Asian upbringing in my days. I'm NOT that old, to persist, but it really seems like lots have changed since 2 decades ago. We were much more innocent and gullible then as children. Well, not anymore as i have observed. My brother seems to be born into an entire new galaxy. His assertiveness and mannerisms are certainly not of a 5 year-old in the 1980s. We were so much more subdued then. Oh maybe it's just me. I was such a good girl and all. Hick hick. Well to cut it short, basically i wanted to say that it's a love-hate relationship between my 5-yr-old bro n me.

i'm so glad i'm not with him. love him sooo much when i read his letters. he's so cute! but when you're with him, that's right. a love-hate relationship. you'll see more kissings & huggings here. and biting, when they get excited. it's scary at times. hiakzz~~

i love weekends

i've become a traveling person, 4nights stuck with two maids, in an isolated place where u see up, the sky; left right, houses; front, apartment; down, boring floor. used to hate that time flies, but during weekdays, i just wish it was the next day everyday! i love weekends, though i have to attend college two full-days. but at least it's more called LIFE. i wish i had more time for other activities though.

i went to check my eyes today, 3 shops i went, with 3 similar but different results. the first shop i went, the stupiad woman freaked me out! i felt like crying. she said my short-sighted increased by 300!! i'm so scared i'll be blind one day...incidents i can never forget: 1) mistaken my dad's underwear as my singlet 2) watch TV as near as 2cm coz my spects were in the shop 3) used the toothbrush i used to brush my comb to brush my teeth! (still feel like vomiting)

idiot in the bus

hmm...i seem to face at least a little problem whenever i took the bus since i came here. Last Saturday was my first day of class. I woke up so early & walked to the bus-stop. no bus. until around half and hour or so, a blue bus came. i was so relieved and went to ask the driver, "sunway pyramid?" he said, "ada, ada!" so i juz went up the bus, only then realising that i was alone in the bus with the driver. some more, he purposely took a wrong turn. only then i realised that i was in a bas pekerja. shit. imagine, i was alone with this guy for an hour, so scared i was crying already. lucky he still berperikemanusiaan, brought me safely to my destination after an hour. i was just in time for the orientation. free ride.

the next day, i still woke early. took a bus but it stoped at the ktm station for about half an hour, then the bus driver said, "ahmoi, cantiklah kasut awak. mana beli?" "bapa beli, tak tau la." ... ... then he called me to teach him mandarin. so i juz told him 早安。whatever, at least i noe i'll be safe.

today everything should be running smoothly, but me stupiakk la. i came down the bus one stop earlier, and that makes alot more to walk. so hot when i reached college. but i'm still early.

things are getting better. just hope everything is good. i'm adapting as soon as i can :)

life as a temporary 'teacher'?

This holiday i decided to make good use of my time. I chose to be a temporary kindergarten teacher. The main reason is I LIKE KIDS. But i'm not sure if i can handle a whole big bunch of them, and how it feels --- to be surrounded by kids everyday. Will i get bored??

What is your first impression of a kindergarten teacher? Well, most ppl might think that it's an easy job, teaching the kids the easiest things you'd ever known...whatever. But try it just for a day! And you'll know how it feels like. From my experience and advices from consultants, the most important thing is that you must have the LOVE for the kids. You have to ENJOY being with them, you need PATIENCE, you gotta be GENTLE and METICULOUS, you must have CONFIDENCE and be CREATIVE, and sometimes make yourself FEEL LIKE THEM.

These are my first badge of students. The six-year-olds. They're really adorable, though annoying at times. You won't believe that they're soooo smart and some have very matured thinking. Sometimes i was thinking, how can just a year's difference make it such a big gap between the six-year-olds and five-year-olds. But one thing in common, even for the little one-year-old, they hate it when you forgot their names! Yes, another important thing, you have to remember every single name and even their parents. It's even better if you're abit 'kepo' to know about their family background...hehe.

You can see straight away who they like and who they don't, especially teachers! For teachers, it's the same. You'll definitely have different levels of love. It's just that teachers had to hide them, and just be fair. As for me, i feel weird when they called me "teacher". So since the start, i had let myself be their friend. And didn't really act like a teacher? So they liked me. I was just like their big big sister, and their angel when the other teacher suddenly burst out and smacked them all. It's only a month or two i've been there, but they said they'd miss me. And i knew i did too.

The working hours are long, and it's tiring at the end of the day. It's worse in the morning when you have to wake up so early. It makes me think over and over again...whether or not i should continue to run along in this field. I don't think being a kindy teacher all my life would satisfy me, but open a kindy myself? I've never really thought that far yet...but i wished to be braver...especially this time, as i've made one of the BIGGEST decisions in my life.
Thinking of the positive sides:
1) Mrs. Sue said, "............"
2) Ms. Lo said, "............"
The above statements are my secrets. hehe. But i was so touched when they told me those.
3) It's my dream.
4) Feel young always. The kids can cheer you up.
5) My loved ones are raising their hands to give me support.
... ... (i dunno wat else, but i don't think i need much reasons.)

I just gotta give it a GO!

That'll be the real me :) That's what mama says...i'm just so stubborn. haha. 'coz it's me :p

got my consciousness back to laugh at a silly guy

It's a long long road, there's like no end
I knew my mind was drifting to nowhere again
I kept driving...and driving
My eyes focused on the car in front of me
But i kept a distance from the car
I just knew if i saw two red lights in front of me
I gotta start braking, for the brakes suck
The car in front of me went on, but i stopped
'Coz i saw the traffic lights turn RED
But guess what
A silly car beside me just ignored it and raced his car through it
What bad luck
He drove past a policeman who was on his bike!
Just as the policeman's side turned GREEN and was going to take a go
Haha, can you believe it
But my sis and i were laughing so hard when the policeman chased after the car!!
You should see the policeman's face...
Got him! Got him!
Haha, we laughed louder now
We look like idiots but we couldn't stop
You know why?
'Coz we were going to race through too
And we didn't notice the policeman too
Luckily my legs had better senses
Hahaha

kick his butt!! a-cha!!

how i wished i can kick his butt high up and let him feel the pain but he'll not get hurt?! haha...how fun! dun think i'm crazy...it's really very very irritating to have a monster brother like this one!!! seems like i can tolerate almost every little kid but my own five-year-old brother!! and the only thing you can do is like the photo beside, or together, the 4 of us will say "breathe in, breathe out". coz we're banned to "torture" him!! he can really drive you crazy, so annoying. for example, kick u and shout "awww" right juz b4 you. or...knock at you like a crazy bull with his bones! or...hiding my shoes and drive me nuts if it's my favourite shoe! or...kissing and hugging you non-stop.(ewww...he's the only one in the family who's so "loving"..argh...)

hmm...reading it again, it's like i'm spoiling his image too much...juz too annoyed and frustrated maybe, today. help him clarify abit la, i really miss him sooo much when i was in Subang, coz he called and he was sooo sweet. he talks not like a five-year-old. smart kid. he wrote a letter to me too. and read it out thru the phone. he made the kissing sound and asked me, "wung che, u noe wat is this sound?" i laughed my head off. and...hah~ he's juz so smart he can make you love him back again so soon...argh!!

looking for my wishing star: "i hope i can juz shot a look at him and he stays still." (haha)

Traveling Pants!!

juz finished my book. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. an interesting book. but i always seem to like the story but not the ending. almost for all the books i read. but how should it end? i could never think of an ending that satisfies myself. maybe it's bcoz i always hate it when i nearly finished reading the books i like, so i always don't like the ending?

The book starts off this cool:
We, the Sisterhood, hereby instate the following rules to govern the use of the traveling pants:
1. You must never wash the pants.
2. You must never double-cuff the Pants. It's tacky. There will never be a time when this will not be tacky.
3. You must never say the word "phat" while wearing the Pants. You must also never think "i am fat" while wearing the pants.
4. You must never let a boy take off the Pants (although you may take them off yourself in his presence).
5. You must not pick your nose while wearing the Pants. You may, however, scratch casually at your nostril while really kind of picking.
6. Upon our reunion, you must follow the proper procedures for documenting your time in the Pants.
7. You must write to your Sisters throughout the summer, no matter how much fun you are having without them.
8. You must pass the Pants along to your Sisters according to the specifications set down by the Sisterhood. Failure to comply will result in a severe spanking upon our reunion.
9. You must not wear the Pants with a tucked-in shirt and belt. See rule #2.
10. Remember: Pants = love. Love your pals. Love yourself.

"self-made dreamy"

When i had my first email address, i named myself dreamywen. now i don't know why i actually give myself such a silly name, and my parents especially hate it!! haha! they say i'll become dreamier & dreamier having dat name. well well, i'm really always day-dreaming. it's fun at times, but sometimes i juz dozed off like dat, not realising wat had happened the couple of minutes b4...and recently it got worse! i was talking in my dream! it happened after that nite my sis talked in her dream. i couldn't sleep dat nite.
"......"
"wat r u saying?"
"......"
"i can't hear u." (but i was sure she was repeating the same sentence)
"......"
"are u dreaming?"
"NO." (dat's the funny part! coz she really is dreaming!)
the next nite, it was my turn, but only i realised it myself. it happened again another day. but this time she heard me. and i too woke coz i dreamt of a scary person!! argh!! the conversations were juz weird, but i forgot most of it.

the question is : why do we dream?? and dreaming of such weird stuffs?
think hard, and i bet u'll laugh at most of the dreams u remember... they're juz sooooo stupid!!!

the forgotten...

well well, juz remembered dat i actually opened a blog here months ago when i was still in Subang!! all bcoz i failed to put up my first post, coz i accidentally deleted all the templates! muahaha :D

it's always fun reading others' blog, but when it's time for me to write mine, i always got stuck. not like i write emails to my closer frens, juz crap all along & it ended up to be a long essay ^_^

now i'm back in kuching still looking for a suitable uni to go to, as i've decided to change my course. it was a brave decision to make, giving myself a chance to lead my own way. "happy and nervous", is all i can say. i don't know if i've made the right choice to quit the business course, but since i've decided, i won't turn and go back again...but honestly, i had a great time in KL with my new buds there. at least that was my first experience of uni life. besides feeling lonely sometimes out there, usually there's always laughter roaring around. sometimes i miss those days too...but i wonder how long can a 4-month friendship last? it's like i haven't got to know them well enuf and i gotta go. i wish i can still be one of the laughing queens when i'm with them again in the future...juz wishing them all the best for their sem2! we've all gone thru sem1 perfectly!! yeah!! :)

working is no fun. i wanna go study!! feel young, feel syokkkkk =.='

my first post!

suddenly juz tot of writing something juz for the fun of it...so many ppl's using it!
today happened to be my last lecture in TBS, took some picts with my buddies in the lecture hall, even the girl who hated taking photos ran into the picture! as if i'm never gonna see them again...it's really sad thinking of departures though...
i was having a room of my own for the last two months & suddenly i had a roommate, a very kepo one...haha :p but a nice gal...phew! myanmar to china to penang chinese...goodness, my heart was pounding so hard when i saw the pair of blue sport-shoes at the doorstep! i heard i'll have another new housemate tomoro. staying with frens is a challenge, i call it, coz it's like a new family outside...far from home sweet home...
i always sleep late and wake early since i came here, but my frens still always call me pig...why? they say i love to sleep...well well, i really do! a funny thing is that it's become a routine that i can't wake up every tuesdays!haha~ and guess wat? i was so blur this morning, and only realised that i had used my old red toothbrush to brush my teeth, instead of the blue one. i used the red one to brush my comb the other day! eeeew...awww...yucks!!
don't wanna end up writing too much crap in my first post...better stop now...goodnitez~