i'm trying to brush my teeth now everytime after drinking coffee. haha so troublesome especially after already applying moisturizers, but it does help abit i think. after you brush and spit, the coffee colour comes off. haha erm.
i cut my own hair after 3days of cravings to cut hair. felt abit more shuang, but of course cant compare like in kch, sien then can go wash hair or have a trim. that feeling then is really shuang.
went to the beach 2times in 3days just to enjoy the freaking cold breeze. haha. ppl socialise at school or at work, dogs socialise at the beach. incredibly many dogs!
may i have a lil bit more adventurous frens, other than shopping and eating. i'm broke liao la.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
i love home i miss home
when i feel so stressed i just felt like calling mummy. it feels so nice to talk to mummy when i'm stressed. she just kinda have that special magic to reduce stress. i dont have to complain. you'll get to talk very little when talking with mummy, cos she'll be the one talking loads. but her stories from home always make me happy and want to hear more. i actually missed home if i did not call home like 3days, cos mum conditioned me to be like that? haha. if i din call, she'll sms and ask me why no news. but last week was the longest, one week we did not even sms or call, so busy. until i finally got mum's sms n"my dear oh seem years we no sms n call what is so busy down there. mum and dad are busy but can cope. call if can very miss". made me wanna cry suddenly. oh how i miss home!
well, now's all good. just that my 考试恐惧症 is conquering me again. good luck gie!
well, now's all good. just that my 考试恐惧症 is conquering me again. good luck gie!
what love means to you?
when someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. you just know that your name is safe in their mouth.
love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.
love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.
Friday, June 05, 2009
i know it's over, still i cling.
is it really over?
i dont know i dont know I DONT KNOW!!!
i really wished i knew:(
the more i told myself not to think, the more i think and think.
it just never gets off my mind.
how come? since when it became like that? WHY?
i wish i can put myself in a blank state now.
but what's the point?
here i am, still clinging.
how stupid.
HOW LIAO?????
i dont know i dont know I DONT KNOW!!!
i really wished i knew:(
the more i told myself not to think, the more i think and think.
it just never gets off my mind.
how come? since when it became like that? WHY?
i wish i can put myself in a blank state now.
but what's the point?
here i am, still clinging.
how stupid.
HOW LIAO?????
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Saturday, May 09, 2009
all well except the weather!
another month has gone. and it still feels like yesterday! what have i done??
well i had the craziest times battling with three dreadful assignments due on the same day! Joi and I concluded that this kind of last-minute-habit adds excitement to life, and thus should not be executed. life is meant to be thrilled aint it? enjoy that moment when the burden is put off your shoulders, wowh, how wonderful!!
i've been having dates with the physio. never knew my balancing skills were that bad, but improving now. i'm practising hard mien! cos i'm so scared to sprain my ankle again, worst spraint i've ever got. one month already still got swelling and pain. sniff sniff.
i realised how poisonous some friends can be. really scary. just dont ever judge anyone from what you hear or see the first time. know a person well enough to judge him or her!!
the weather is almost unbearable and since i started feeling it i never stopped complaining YET!!! but have a taste of wearing singlet and shorts going into the hot pools and getting out of the water again. woosh!! you cant even find your own fingers and toes! climb up the stairs wobbly and scream the way down the hydroslide, yippee!!! i love that!!
this year my whole birthday month was extremely filled with surprises, getting those unexpected mails and wishes. yea i definitely miss all my friends and family back home. one thing i gotta mention is mummy and nainai's 爱心 bolster cover. of all cartoons and characters, they must choose 'Hello Kitty'!! haha. when i received it, i can just say, it's the first time in my life i thought 'hello kitty' was cute, and now i even have to hug kitty to sleep every night! amusing but yeah. dont want more kitty-s.
one week's practicum over. coping well with culture diversity. interesting experience. two more weeks to go. yo! gambate angie-des!!! kapai!!!
well i had the craziest times battling with three dreadful assignments due on the same day! Joi and I concluded that this kind of last-minute-habit adds excitement to life, and thus should not be executed. life is meant to be thrilled aint it? enjoy that moment when the burden is put off your shoulders, wowh, how wonderful!!
i've been having dates with the physio. never knew my balancing skills were that bad, but improving now. i'm practising hard mien! cos i'm so scared to sprain my ankle again, worst spraint i've ever got. one month already still got swelling and pain. sniff sniff.
i realised how poisonous some friends can be. really scary. just dont ever judge anyone from what you hear or see the first time. know a person well enough to judge him or her!!
the weather is almost unbearable and since i started feeling it i never stopped complaining YET!!! but have a taste of wearing singlet and shorts going into the hot pools and getting out of the water again. woosh!! you cant even find your own fingers and toes! climb up the stairs wobbly and scream the way down the hydroslide, yippee!!! i love that!!
this year my whole birthday month was extremely filled with surprises, getting those unexpected mails and wishes. yea i definitely miss all my friends and family back home. one thing i gotta mention is mummy and nainai's 爱心 bolster cover. of all cartoons and characters, they must choose 'Hello Kitty'!! haha. when i received it, i can just say, it's the first time in my life i thought 'hello kitty' was cute, and now i even have to hug kitty to sleep every night! amusing but yeah. dont want more kitty-s.
one week's practicum over. coping well with culture diversity. interesting experience. two more weeks to go. yo! gambate angie-des!!! kapai!!!
Monday, April 13, 2009
in times when i'm so helpless
unable to comfort a friend who's in great depression and guilt.
unable to just type out an essay and be free from stress.
unable to walk like normal still.
unable to eat the food and pearl milk tea i crave for.
unable to just call anyone on my list and have a good chat now.
unable to keep my feet warm and nice though i put layers on it already.
unable to read minds. (wished life wouldnt fool ppl around.)
unable to find a broad shoulder to lean onto just to feel a sense of belonging.
unable to just type out an essay and be free from stress.
unable to walk like normal still.
unable to eat the food and pearl milk tea i crave for.
unable to just call anyone on my list and have a good chat now.
unable to keep my feet warm and nice though i put layers on it already.
unable to read minds. (wished life wouldnt fool ppl around.)
unable to find a broad shoulder to lean onto just to feel a sense of belonging.
Friday, April 10, 2009
twenty-three!
i thought birthday 2009 would be so boring at this new place. but it turned out to be kinda WOW! :)
Friends can make you feel so warm and homey when you're so far away from home. i was so touched when the ASV girls gave me this surprise party when everyone's in pyjamas. haha. we're all covered in and choking due to baking powder and chocolate rubbed on all our faces but it was such fun although i sprained my lousy ankle.
i had to skip all my classes on my bday cos i couldnt even stand well when i woke up. it was so swollen! the next thing i'm like a cacat-ed person unable to walk and there badge-mates took turns visiting with pressies. woosh.
unable to attend the popping-battle as planned:( cant bare to limp in the cold cold rain!
Angie's and Becky's planned bday party. we started 10+pm, playing cards and eating snacks and drink. More and more ppl joined until 'the palace' was filled with about 20ppl. everyone was high. everyone was drunk. first time in life i drank so much. i banged my head several times. i ate lemon like sweet orange. i swallowed tap water. i think i took crazy photos with some ppl i just got to know. i must be drunk. but still made sure i stayed conscious, maybe phoebia of seeing drunk ppl. so yah, 9th april was filled with laughters and i felt so loved.
we drank throughout the night and i think the apartment was freakin' noisy cos everyone was talking and laughing in such uncontrollable loud voice! suddenly 'piang!' and blood. i suddenly kinda woke up from my drunken spirit but still bit blur. yah then came security, paramedic, ambulance police. and our party ended around 3am 10th april, with everyone half-drunk half-blur half-shocked. argh!
so i still remember 9th april as a sweet and lovely day. of cos never forgetting dad's bday also on the same day. calls from home, msgs and wishes from kuching buddies, cards and parcels. all so sweet, all so dear:)
i love my family, i love my friends, i love myself!
THANK YOU for making my day so speciaL!!!!
TWENTY-THREE ain't bad at aLL!!! :D:D:D
Friends can make you feel so warm and homey when you're so far away from home. i was so touched when the ASV girls gave me this surprise party when everyone's in pyjamas. haha. we're all covered in and choking due to baking powder and chocolate rubbed on all our faces but it was such fun although i sprained my lousy ankle.
i had to skip all my classes on my bday cos i couldnt even stand well when i woke up. it was so swollen! the next thing i'm like a cacat-ed person unable to walk and there badge-mates took turns visiting with pressies. woosh.
unable to attend the popping-battle as planned:( cant bare to limp in the cold cold rain!
Angie's and Becky's planned bday party. we started 10+pm, playing cards and eating snacks and drink. More and more ppl joined until 'the palace' was filled with about 20ppl. everyone was high. everyone was drunk. first time in life i drank so much. i banged my head several times. i ate lemon like sweet orange. i swallowed tap water. i think i took crazy photos with some ppl i just got to know. i must be drunk. but still made sure i stayed conscious, maybe phoebia of seeing drunk ppl. so yah, 9th april was filled with laughters and i felt so loved.
we drank throughout the night and i think the apartment was freakin' noisy cos everyone was talking and laughing in such uncontrollable loud voice! suddenly 'piang!' and blood. i suddenly kinda woke up from my drunken spirit but still bit blur. yah then came security, paramedic, ambulance police. and our party ended around 3am 10th april, with everyone half-drunk half-blur half-shocked. argh!
so i still remember 9th april as a sweet and lovely day. of cos never forgetting dad's bday also on the same day. calls from home, msgs and wishes from kuching buddies, cards and parcels. all so sweet, all so dear:)
i love my family, i love my friends, i love myself!
THANK YOU for making my day so speciaL!!!!
TWENTY-THREE ain't bad at aLL!!! :D:D:D
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
a STRONGER me
woo...i've been in NZ for exactly one month plus one week now! "fluctuating weather, fluctuating emotions, fluctuating health, fluctuating stress and fun!" is how i should describe the life here! experiencing new culture, new friends, new lifestyle. guess i'm doing ok? after the first 3weeks of trouble, i'm stronger now!!
In Malaysia, i'll say "I'm Chinese."
In NZ, i say "I'm Malaysian." Never knew i could feel so proud to say that i'm a Malaysian. it feels special. hoho. i love my country. very much:)
Some quotes i find interesting:)
"I love deadlines. I like the whoosing sound they make as they fly by." ---Douglas Adams
YE'A... RIGHT!!!
"Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight." ---Phyllis Diller
THAT'S A CHALLENGE!!
"I am no chameleon, for i only wanted to be myself, out of habit and instinct."
I LOVE THIS. I LIKE MY REAL-SELF, AND I WANT PEOPLE TO LIKE ME FOR WHO I REALLY AM:)
In Malaysia, i'll say "I'm Chinese."
In NZ, i say "I'm Malaysian." Never knew i could feel so proud to say that i'm a Malaysian. it feels special. hoho. i love my country. very much:)
Some quotes i find interesting:)
"I love deadlines. I like the whoosing sound they make as they fly by." ---Douglas Adams
YE'A... RIGHT!!!
"Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight." ---Phyllis Diller
THAT'S A CHALLENGE!!
"I am no chameleon, for i only wanted to be myself, out of habit and instinct."
I LOVE THIS. I LIKE MY REAL-SELF, AND I WANT PEOPLE TO LIKE ME FOR WHO I REALLY AM:)
Monday, February 02, 2009
inexpressable nervousness.
still chinese-new-year-ing. wanna fully utilise my 15days. seems like i wont be back celebrating cny the next three years!! sniff sniff.
the days to fly are drawing near. ask me why nervous? i dunno also, just nervous. like everything so new...maybe settled too long in kuching, abit lost in touch with the adventurous-daring-self.
like still so many things to get done, not enough time.
speechless.
the days to fly are drawing near. ask me why nervous? i dunno also, just nervous. like everything so new...maybe settled too long in kuching, abit lost in touch with the adventurous-daring-self.
like still so many things to get done, not enough time.
speechless.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
sudden thoughts, sudden feelings =.=
"Thank you for passing my sms skills. So proud to know that i have improved. You see a little praise can elevate one to heaven sense! Ha ha. That's how our litte children feel dont forget - it's our only magic spell that works wonders. Glad you like the scarf, mummy is always there to keep you warm! bye love, mummy ju"-- 24.12.08
just suddenly missing you, mummy. during times when i needed somebody to understand my thoughts and some encouragement to move on, you'll always be in mind. how i miss your hug right now!
it has been quite long since i dreamt of dearest ahMah. but the scene aint good. wonder how life is heaven is. hope ahMah is all well up there. i miss you too, ahMah :* :*
"One lives in the hope of becoming a memory."
i dont call this greed. everyone wants to be and deserves to be remembered. no matter family or friends who are near or far, we still want to be remembered. we are so used to hiding our feelings, making ourselves so humble and all. but i still do agree that actions speak louder than words. we need to do something to let ppl know what we're thinking. where are YOU??? what is your weird mind thinking??! owh!
just suddenly missing you, mummy. during times when i needed somebody to understand my thoughts and some encouragement to move on, you'll always be in mind. how i miss your hug right now!
it has been quite long since i dreamt of dearest ahMah. but the scene aint good. wonder how life is heaven is. hope ahMah is all well up there. i miss you too, ahMah :* :*
"One lives in the hope of becoming a memory."
i dont call this greed. everyone wants to be and deserves to be remembered. no matter family or friends who are near or far, we still want to be remembered. we are so used to hiding our feelings, making ourselves so humble and all. but i still do agree that actions speak louder than words. we need to do something to let ppl know what we're thinking. where are YOU??? what is your weird mind thinking??! owh!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
~~ dreams ~~
I look into the sky and what do i see?
A castle, a rainbow, and dreams for me.
I struggled through the days of being lonely,
Yet everywhere i go, there kindness is waiting for me.
I know my passion and direction,
And there's my persistence and determination.
I'm stepping into the battlefield to fight,
For my dream to come in real sight!
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