Why would mama sometimes make things so difficult? I haven’t cried for so long. I’ve tried my best to make myself conscious of what is actually happening around me. I’m so known the happy girl and I like to make things less complicated. But somehow things are turned upside down and many things just so unexpectedly happen. I used to think that life was like a roller coaster but now I think it is worse. At least you can shout throughout the ride on a roller coaster and after that everything is back to normal. But in real life, you just have to eat up all the problems until you feel too full. Then you need to burp hard to release some burden! There it comes. I just burped. I’m so the confused now. I wish there’s somebody totally out of the way to talk to. Drink a memory loss potion? Hahaha. I think that is worse. I treasure memories. A lot. I wonder if I ever gave them good memories as well…

YO!!! my blog deserves some happy stuffs!! now i read some of my posts it's like so depressing. what the hell? what has happened to me la?? hehe, counting down these days....13 more days!! and i'll be back home with my dearest bed, and now i can call my toilet at home 'dearest' too!! yindeh said i could kiss it after what i've experienced here, but no thank you la. it's enough to let it be my throne, and i can sit there dreaming. hehehe :> the family president has called, and the motivator is on her mission!! but things are not confirmed yet...

now another half year has passed...and that means my life's gonna change again!! gonna say byebye to Starbucks soon...i'm happy & sad...haizz...but i promised not to write sad stuffs today!! so let's say what i'll miss...i'll miss curi-curi pouring our own drinks with partners without letting the managers see, i'll miss shouting the long long names of the drinks i used to think was so hard to call when i first joined, e.g. "i have a Venti-Hazelnut-Low Fat-Light Whipped-Signature Hot Chocolate" or a "Grande Toffeenut Less Sweet Frappuccino Blended Coffee"...haha...and what else...i'll miss mixing with those crazy ppl who's always saying the F word whom i think does not belong to my gang...i'll miss being at the counter meeting weird weird customers, making me laugh :D:D i'll miss coffee tasting when we sit down together, guys evaluating girls body & girls looking for leng-zhai(s). leng-zhais are really rare here!!! pathetic. but a good guy is kinda extinct now. haha.

btw, i might become a supervisor?? haha. dunno yet. i've been looking for so many jobs and houses, but whenever i wanna call, my heart still thumps so fast! goodness sake. anyways, since i announced today to be a happy day, i'm eating dinner with "my dear" bangla. hahaha. wish me luck ;)

我忽然很想学手语 跟哑巴约会
暂时让世间所有的声音藏在耳后
安静的世界里 就只有我和他

D: Sometimes it's better to remain single, coz it's happier that way.
G: But somehow, it's a nice feeling to love and feel being loved...
D: Ya...but a relationship actually gives us more sadness than happiness.
G: But that little happiness can really cover all the sadness.
D: Dunno what guys are thinking la, why can't they just berterus-terang?!
G: Yalo, guys memang unpredictable. We still want to know although sometimes we don't feel like knowing.
D: Scared just because of loneliness, i just go for the wrong guy as he comes along.
G: I scared i'll be like that, but i don't want that to happen lar...
D: Sometimes we just have to let go.
G: But it's really so so hard......