hmm...it's a nightmare for a person to remember you because once long time ago you dropped your bun on the floor and that person saw you pick it up and peel off the skin and eat the bun? thank god i did not blow it and eat it! mien, what a nightmare! well, it's nice having ppl to look forward to while chatting on msn. so far i have 7. it's just the happy feeling when you see them online, no matter you're actually chatting, or talking crap, or just having "the silence"...hah...

suddenly there's so much work to do...house, college, work, mind, friends... i'm starting to feel breathless... and i'm actually starting my individual & group assignments, and my piling reports!! and plannign ahead for arts & crafts for the children. and my lessons. and plans to release catharsis. at these times, i always think of the beach, and somewhere i can shout out really loud. i dreamt of myself crying last night, how stupid. but again, i dunno what's the reason. issit that it's so hard for me to cry that i had to express it in my dreams? that'd be so pathetic!! just cry it out, baby! BUT HOW?!

oh, help me help me...