my dear Yew Juin...
can you please stop giving me an emotional breakdown? You always cause me feeling so sorry when it's not really my fault but half my fault. i was so sorry but it was hard for me to apologize to her. i felt so bad :( how could you be so fast? it's just a few seconds i'm away! you cause a foebia in me, seeing you around. you won't know how cute you looked when you first came, the two of you with bald heads, looking totally identical, talking in your own world in your own languages. i got to know you both were ADHD and what an exposure i have! i spent 2weeks to observe you two and really sat down to just look at both of you. and i managed to finally identify both of you. nobody at school can identify you both yet, i feel proud to say so. but now i know, you both look so different!

you really can drive me crazy! i bit my lips so many times because i was so frustrated at that time and i couldn't hit you. i quietly scolded you "bulldog" in my heart, making use of the effective word CJ taught us. when you climbed the piano and stood up there singing so happily, i nearly died of heart attack. when you messed up the whole place and get me to grab the wriggly you to pack up my muscles grew by a few inches. when i see you putting everything in your mouth i nearly vomitted. when you peed and pooed at first i felt like spanking you. when you bit my butt my finger and my thigh, i nearly felt like strangling you. how can you just bite so easily? you just cant control!! but i've seen you tried and i know how much effort you've put to control that. you';re a total opposite of me here. i felt so much like biting that someone once last year, but i had too much self-control. i just couldn't put my teeth together to bite that flesh! sometimes i wish i was more spontaneous like you. but please...please...please...work hard!! we'll help you all we can.

however with all your mischieve, you always melt my heart in so many ways!! i wonder i'm really that soft, but i don't feel so. you're all just so special. you melted my heart when you suddenly come and hug me. you gave me a really wet kiss when we sang the song! you suddenly jumped on my back and nearly strangled me. you pulled my hand to see what you have made, i can't understand, but will appreciate it. you made me so happy when you suddenly speaked something out without knowing it yourself! i was so amazed when i actually heard you singing for the first time! the way you looked at me when i washed your hands. the way you said bye-bye like an adult in a manly voice. the longest 2minutes you managed to sit on my lap, singing and dancing with me. you looked at me for no reason and suddenly run and jumped up to just hug me so tight! how did you do that jump?! i fell down but was laughing out really loud. you monster.

whatever, monster. please just control...for the sake of a bumblebee...i love you...