ahMah, wa sio le =.=

ahMah, ki meh hu lang keng jing sio le. ki tik teng pai wa tak jik ta tiok ai ka diang uey hok le, bo ta mik kai pun ta tiok ai ka, pang lok zheng du kiss le jik eh. ki tik le tak pai toh pang keng jiang "ahBung!" wa du zhao bio tik meh ke le pang keng kak le pang hong ill, tak koh-yiok. hu lang keng jing siang mong eh tiok le, siok le, ahmah ko si aneh qin ai de ahmah. ahmah ai ho ho zho sing, hua hi hua hi, pung ai po pi ahbung kak kut lak, hua hua hi hi mai sio aneh zhoi. jin sio le, ahmah. =*=

sneezing queen

wahh i can be sneezing queen liao today! grr!!
i hate flu. i hate sorethroat. i hate to not feeling so well.
i dun miss home currently but EXTREMELY looking forward to go home. makes sense not?
today i woke up late. felt sick and dun feel like going to work. but still went. thank god got rich party today, really rich ah these children! or parents la. so whole day party mood, lazy mood, sneezing mood... i pun curi tulang today lah... or better way to say, im INTERACTING WITH CHILDREN! hehe. it so came up with the topic "you love me onot?" when little Bernice clung onto me like rubber, really boneless! haha. duhh of course i got a yes la. haha, i knowww these darlings lurvvve me. after that i felt silly asking such question, sounds so desperado. apu~ but there's this little 4yr-old, aiyer dunno next time how. she kissed me, then asked me to kiss her, so i kissed her forehead. then she said, kiss my cheek. ok. then came kiss my eye. wowh, too much!! no no no! haha. well, it's really nice being around children, when they are being GOOD. but guess that's how i always get sick also. their virus like never end one! yrrr!!

new november :)

i've started my november with eyes wide open in front of my laptop screen!

tired. sleepy. but i need to finish this assignment tonite as aimed!! my dictionary has helped me a lot. can i bring this heavy book with me overseas? my english really sucks. my mandarin sucks too. my bm no need say lah. why everything pun bad? cham liao me.

well, well. i'm actually looking forward to this november. dunno why. any upcoming surprises? stay tuned! haha. dont disappoint me ar---me tokking to meself :p

My Colour Profile?

Well, i only chose from the limited colours available and i got these... (suits abit though ;)
you can try it out: http://vn247.net/flash/Color-and-Me.swf

1) i chose a RED house. (odd i know. i tot only one question. and red is my aeroplane colour.)
You have a strong personality that likes to take risks if the rewards are worth it. You don't like being told what to do and prefer to take matters into your own hands.
**seems abit like it? in some situations. gotta find out more about myself about this, hehe.

2) i chose a YELLOW shirt. (the yellow looked nicer here)
You are bubbly and approachable. Unrestricted by the latest fashion trends, you buy clothes only when they look good on you.
**but i do buy clothes that suits me nia. i'm bubbly?

3) i chose a PINK rose. (hehe, nice ler.)
Variety is the spice of life! You are comfortable in any crowd or situation, and always come away with new friends.
**Variety is a spice of life! absolutely!! comfortable anyhow, depends la...

4) i chose a GREY car. (not so adventurous car driver yet.)
You value highly what is important to you. Some people may find your possessions a little out of fashion, but you don't mind as they appeal to your taste.
** haha, im abit the old-fashioned. yes, yes! bear with me :)

5) i chose a BLACK handphone. (i wanted a white one actually.)
Business often takes priority to social occasions. You are aggressive in business, but tend to take the backseat when it comes to your personal life.
**no idea about this. yet.

6) i chose a BROWN bear. (bears. haha. i dont so fancy bears. brown is a normal colour.)
You are a no-nonsense, practical person. You make sure that you are there when your friends need you, and like to solve their problems for them.
**well i dont know how to solve their problems, but i hope i can make them feel better :)

i feel so motionless. so static. so stationary. so still.
i seem to REFUSE to move. i'm not doing anything. this is so so bad.
i'm being rebellious to my mind. not doing what it wanted me to do. or supposed to do. (in most situations. why do i always lose to myself? i hate this me.)
my ears...so fragile...dunno wat yucky 'water' coming out non-stop!! i just wore fake ear-rings for less than a day!!! ouch!
i miss my buddies. i miss home.
and yea, have i changed?

my qiu-kap-mo-dik MOU-TAK-TENG chabo friends!

i love my qiu-kap-mo-dik MOU-TAK-TENG chabo friends!!
kimmie babey, jacnene the boony boon boon, xuan dear dear...
you girls are there almost every minute when i most needed someone to pamper me and make me drive on! this terrible month would be really awwwfuL without you girls. luvya dearies~~ muaxxxX!!

this cat is really cute.
but be careful. it has hidden cruelties. hoho. you can hardly see the words if the picture is small!
i was actually so tired of doing work, and went to google photos to search "kill". believe it not? haha.
I FOUND THE KILLER.
not telling who's the target :p
a way of releasing stress? erm..maybe.
i realised that i like to look for pictures that suits my emotions at that time. weirdo you can call me.

跟爸聊起我TBS的朋友。她们都今年底毕业，是有点羡慕啦。爸问我有没有后悔，我说没有。“那样就好了。”有那一丝丝的感动，但知道他心里多希望我也是跟她们一起今年底就毕业的。爸一直都默默的支持我，我有说不出也表达不出的感动。他不多问，但他会让你自然的向他倾诉，因为他很耐心的听；他话不多说，但他好像什么都知道。现在好想抱抱爸爸...抱得紧紧的...

这么久了，应该习惯了。可是为什么我还是那么在意？小气啊！就那句话而已嘛，可那句话每次都害我很痛！她就是不懂，也不试着去懂。“我J，但她是她，我是我！”很想喊出来，但每次都选择保持沉默。不说了。并不能了解身边每个人吧，我是简单中的复杂。我也不知我到底够了解你吗，但最近发现你想找人依靠时你都会找我，就这样让你依靠吧。你不用了解我，就这样爱着我好吗？这样就够了，真的。
我相信我无数的小小愿望会慢慢的一个一个实现：）这算自我安慰吗？

after that beautiful 2909, i somehow felt that i lost a good friend. why? a used-to-be chatty friend who keeps me motivated during my downs, a jovial friend who makes me laugh and smile. suddenly just came the silence. the kind of silence i seem to not like. just tell me why. hate it this way! shit. or maybe i should stay away, until you remember the presence of this friend again? or unless you wanna keep our friendship this way, which i won't ever call it friendship anymore. but why?!!

after listening to bl's story, i really hope that i had left good memories to the one i onced love. i hope there're no regrets although we finally knew that the puzzles don't match. i hope the memories we once shared will stay pure sweet and simple. i believe the puzzles will fit in somewhere. someday.
:):)

有时候就想把眼镜摘下来 让眼前世界模模糊糊的
顿时什么都不想 不看 不要这么忧虑
可是眼睛看不见 耳朵自然听得更清晰 脑袋也不听使唤动得更快
想要休息不动脑筋 反而更会胡思乱想
站在镜子前看着自己模糊的脸 再戴上隐形眼镜看着自己清晰的脸
最终还是比较喜欢清晰而明了的自己
很多事情不能逃避 模糊的画面 也只是暂时性而已
我还学着 面对这过于现实的世界
很努力很努力 让自己成为最自然最特别的自己

发呆

一颗心 要用笑和泪才能装得满。---梁静如

陌生良一通电话吵醒了我。明明就很感激他，却无意间让他觉得愧疚也没怎么想多解释，啊我很坏吗。跟璇约了一起煮晚餐，九点半，她却还傻傻的等，竟然没吵醒我！又笨蛋的浸了米粉，害我不得不遵守承诺。自己走在暗暗那条街上，嘴里念着从小妈妈教的那句默祷，多希望有那个人在身边牵着我的手。每天晚上闭上双眼时出现那一小小段的幻想，超级不实际。这种幻想可以是很好的动力，也可以让你变得好颓废。这个莫名其妙的人，真是的！！把你压在地板上，吖喳！呵呵呵，爽~~

i feel so worn-out...
this october is no fun :( at all.
i need more stimulus and incentives to move on~~

the light called 'you'

i've always lived my life alone, destiny forgotten
but in a sudden light
i awaken
in the middle of the night
quietly
stand in the doorway
and shoot the light into the darkness
perhaps the promises that we have made
will only make you feel uneasy
but those promises were just my wishes that i have about us
i'll introduce you to my family
i'm sure you'll get along with them
no matter the time
we'll always be together
no matter the time
i'll be by your side
the light called 'you' finds me
in the middle of the night
enter a noisy street
and put on the mask of destiny
stop doing meaningless things
like reading too much into our future
let's just eat something delicious for today
because the future is so far ahead of us
even i dont know what will happen
dont consider this the final cut
we can make it even better
we'll be ok if we take it one scene at a time
the light called 'you' reflects my scenario
let's talk some more
about the tomorrow thats before our very eyes
turn off the tv
and look only at me
no matter how good our life is now
i dont completely believe that it will always be this way
but even if the bad times come
i'll still be by your side
the light called 'you' finds me
in the middle of the night
lets talk some more
about the tomorrow thats before our very eyes
turn off the tv
and look only at me
---Utada Hikaru 〈Hikari〉

the beautiful lie

today is a good day, today is a nice day... and it all started with a beautiful lie? i don't want to do it again, coz it really set my nerves up! not every lie works so smoothly, but today is really a day reserved for me :) TO BE HAPPY =D
i was late, but i felt really appreciated by my little darlings.
i told a lie, but got things back with my boss. we were finally like good friends again. back to the good old days.
the broken promise, we couldn't go to Kenny Rogers, but i get to enjoy my bath rather than rush there right after work.
i missed the bus, but got to message my dear buddies about my great day.
it ended up to be a duo-meeting again, but i got to buy my handsome sweater. seldom do i fall so in love with a guy's shirt and missed it so much! if i had a boyfriend, that sweater would definitely be for him. i tried it on, and it still looked awesome on my handsome body. hiakz. i HAD TO buy it. muax!
i had to wait for buka puasa with the mcD food on the table right in front of me, very very funny feeling. but now i have this once-in-a-lifetime-experience. you should try, haha.
i reached home quite late, but finally got a message from the stumbling block. i can't say it's sweet, but it made me feel sweet. somehow. that's how silly i am.
but in all, it's a really WONDERFUL day. smile :) smile :) smile :)

my emotional "it"

i hope my heart give me the right hints.
i wish it could tell me what to do, and lead me the directions, letting me arrive soundly at my dreamed destinations...
it only seems to do the right thing when it is happy...
it's like not functioning when it's sad.
why so emotional?
it's just an "IT" ya know?!

今年中秋并没有想象中孤单。我们吃着月饼‘假装赏月’，哈哈，还配印度炒饭和超甜的美禄沙冰！真不够中秋风味，哈哈。月亮今夜很圆很亮，很美。因为忘了拿钥匙，让我多走在街上几步，感觉上好久没这样望着夜空漫步。这时候好想有个人牵着我的手...再借我宽宽的肩膀依靠。很傻又很舒心。很多回忆顿时像钢琴声响起...大声的小声的，好听的难听的，有旋律的乱七八糟的......月亮好像想告诉我什么似的......但我还没有学会月亮的语言~~
只是忽然想起了那首奇怪的诗...
tonight, there was this round bright eye staring at me.
It follows me around the bush, around the bend of the road,
constantly piercing me with its sharp stares from behind.
Everywhere i go, there it was with its bright staring eye.
When i just about to reach home, suddenly it appears in front of me
and i stopped, trying to decide what to do
as i looked at it and it looks at me: one thing occurs to me, it is just as lonely as i am
but here i am looking at it, someone out there is doing the same thing too
i realised how lucky i am to be able to see warm night light*~~~

i can see whats happening
and they dont have a clue
they will fall in love
and our trio will be down to two
theres magic everywhere
with all these romantic atmosphere, disaster is in the air
cant you feel the love tonight
the world is living in perfect harmony
with all its living things
so many things to tell her
but how to make her see
the truth of my past but thats impossible
hes holding back
why wont he be the king he is
cant guess?