A new year already. 2010.

2009--i felt i was younger again being a student, as compared to 2008, as a working lady. As usual ppl i met are either elder or younger, i kind of became young again with them, but with more wisdom;) this year in NZ, couldn't say i was tough enough to not miss home, and being so far away from home, i really felt how nice it is to have a huge family! Friends here are nice, and we all accompanied each other through this year, made it less lonely. We had fun and crazy times, but somehow i just couldn't find the homey feeling of being with my aerobuddies and subang buddies. it just felt different.


this board has accompanied me through the year in my little room in ASV, with all the people i love very, very much. my dearest family. my forever aeros. 这些年那些人which was stolen from yeh as i thought it was a really nice phrase to use. of cos not forgetting yaya, as i just found a pict with her recently. my special board has also caught much attention, heeha, and my roon became everyone's comfy room to chill and for pillow talks...

but anyways, without these NZ buddies here, i dont know if i can bear the year away from home! people here seem to come and go, come and go, and there's like not enough time to even really build a close relationship:(

This is the newest picture in my room:) toast for 2009! and thanks to my NZ buddies for the considered-great-year:) my new room is newly decorated, but no camera to take photos:(

almost all the faces in this pict are singles. and LONELINESS has become a one of the main topics. is it the age? is it the place? the people? or just us ourselves? ppl seem to start getting worried. sometimes i really wonder if i'm always falling for the wrong ones, and wrong ones fall for me. it's sad if this lasts forever! It never worked out with xm though he's really nice, yet we're so cool about it. yesterday can be ignored like nothing has ever happened. we dont really talk about it yet we kinda have a conclusion. we just know it's wrong to be together. maybe he's just meant to be my 恩人，from the first day i met him till now. and for two years now i still think that THAT stupid HIM is 'the one', but DAMN he's so not worth it and we never even really started. what we feel is not always correct, but it's just there, extremely confusing and frustrating. it felt like a love-hate-relationship, yet i never and never will have the courage to say it to him. why live such a silly life. damn.

ah well, 2 more years in NZ. somehow, i got a feeling i'll be going home. i feel that Malaysia is where i really belong, and where i can be my real real self. but well, hopefully for the next two years, life would be better than 2009, where love shone from home, the green beam which always seemed like an encouragement telling me "GO gie! be tough and move on!", the yellow beam which somehow seemed to be able to heal some wounds, and the blue beam which was always there to support whenever needed, and of cos, the red beam which has to try to shine itself with its own brightness!!!!

Life is still great with the LOVES OF MY LIFE.

May 2010 tiger year be filled with more smiles and laughters, great health and everything goes as smoothly as possible:)