LUCK which comes and go...

Another month is gone again. regarding applications, all that has to be done is done, now only waiting for the results. it makes me realise that LUCK still plays a vital role, no matter how hard you strive:( i just need more luck. luck oh luck... fly to lai o lai.... kan lol=lol??? but well, laugh out loud also =lol. so maybe that's why. somebody is laughing at me:(

now is tiem to worry what will happen next. but it seems that i'm so kept busy with work and work and still work!!! cant worry anything till my results are out. the next plan will come when the time arrives. i have been having really high hopes, really looking forward this time. decisions made in life are not to regret, cos every route i took it made me see new things...i dont know, but im afraid...about now, about the future...

the night before exam i dreamt of ah mah, my dear ah mah, who seems to always appear in my dreams when i feel nervous. well, it was a family meeting then, but held at manjee's house? so disconnected. and up came water and crab scene. and dancing scene. all so not related, but yet it went together in the dreams. it was all just too funny!!

today from the kids it's like you can see how crazy love can be in real life situations, haha. No matter how you lecture them, how you shouted so loud oout of anger and squeezed them firmly to listen, made them cry and plead, they still stick to you like glue after that. it seems like they only remember the good stuffs. and at their homes, i'm everly so protected. that's the interesting part, hearing stories of yourself from parents' mouth. and listening to children imitate my tone of voice today, i really couldnt help but laughed out loud. how well they can imitate!! i dont know how successful i am in this field, or at which level i stand now. but the love and passion for it is definitely there, and i get loved in return. will that be enough? yes and no. sigh.

august. kuching fest. deadline. tourguide. birthdays. more unpredictables to come. i really want a break. im beat.......