uncontrollable moody gie:(

these two days...it's just bad enough:( one good thing is that i can put my emotions away while i'm at work, but never to be left alone to think, though sometimes the mind will drift away, but it will come back cos i'll be too occupied and busy to think at all.

kim's car accidentally knocked the bitchy neighbour's car. and she said she has been waiting for this day?! Everything that comes out from her mouth just hurts. why be such a bad person? i really dont understand this kind of people. how can we be neighbours like that?

sometimes with the bestest friends they're so moody but they dont say things out. the thing is that care for each other's feelings too much. somehow. i feel that we do love each other a lot a lot, deep in our hearts. dunno how we built that too. that day when she texted me and said sorry for being rude to me, i was really really shocked. for me, knowing her, i just feel that it's the moody her so i didnt bother the tone at all? maybe i'm really that insensitive? like yindeh and her baboon dear also. maybe it runs in our blood, being so insensitive to the things happening around us, things we've done or even things we have said. we're too cincai to be true. too much of daddy in us? but we do have very very strong feelings...

have been so moody. this is so bad. CJ was shouting as he always did with the voice i cannot stand, but was in such a bad mood i shouted back for his unreasonable wants. i actually walked out of the car leaving him in there, walking towards Upwell, but i realised that i too was not so daring and walked back to the car after 5mins. we were quiet throughout. i brought him to guardian and talked about his hair gel. i bought my things. we became friends again. went home and there was no key. we left for spring again. window shopping with my dear CJ brother. he is so cute. if only other things were also so easy, like with brothers and sister.

i met szehan at the spring. was incredibly happy to see her. havented contacted her in ages! how i missed jacnene, xuan, yen, cb, WL and mummy ju. they're also ppl i shared so many things with. somehow, ppl you meet in college, they are not the best, but you also share lots of precious moments together. aeros have become like part of the family, whereas these friends are the ppl you miss a lot once in awhile... but ALL OF THEM are so so far away from me:(

as time passes, you learn what is love and what is crush. you just know it, i think. it's just a moment of desperation maybe? somehow we'll have higher expectations when we're in a relationship, or craving for a relationship. it's just ruins things if you're not meant to be. it's sweet at times but it always hurts more. again, WHY? until i find the right one. the very right ONE who fits into the puzzle perfectly:) on valentine's, i made a heart-shaped craft, and every child had to say "i love you" WILLINGLY. haha. was a funny but beautiful moment:) they were all so naive, so cute. my principal laughed, i said i was desperate. haha. but i'm not:P it's just fun seeing the children, who couldnt wait for their turns to say "i love you". it's so easy to say these three words to little children.

i miss a lot of things. i wished all of us were still in school. i wished we hadn't grown so fast into working ppl. i wished we talked and laughed more like we always did. i wish would never feel bored of each other, even when we're sitting down together in silence. I wish we'll always enjoy the moments we share together. i wish i could make a more professional wish, although even little little simple wishes are already so hard to come true at times:( let me stay happy. i like the happy me:)