~day of departures~

i had to depart with so many people today. first is xuan. the last night we spent together was at tony's. then my room, doing christmas wordings for the mural. then we talked and talked. then we slept. 2hours i managed to sleep, then i was turning round and round, then looking at her sleep. this friend of mine, made subang somehow less lonely at nights, and is there to listen. i'll miss her!!

the whole last night i was thinking about today. all the departures. i felt so full, like up to the throat. but my tears never came out. feel abit suffocated actually. couldnt sleep, so got up to make a card. since my room's so small, i stood up to do the card, and she thought i was exercising?! haha really funny. i went to work early, and we had water play. all so totally wet, having real fun with the kids. cant help but kept cuddling them. when the day finally ended, it's like, my duty for the year in LCMH is accomplished! i miss every single one in LCMH, a small nice group with lovely people. of coz it all ended with dear mrs teoh again, giving me another present, and this time i gave her a real hug of mine, but she hugged back so dearly and firmly, until i really felt like the princess diaries. i wasnt rigid this time, really enjoying the hug :) it's the BIG HUG i had longed for since so long ago but there was no one to really hug. she taught me actually how to hug a big person, and that hugging can really give you the sense of comfort. it'll always be my favourite sign of affection.
(im like talking about hugging a lot recently. finding back lost times i guess. mrs teoh is really someone i'll miss so much!! and few of the lil monsters!! all but the few especially, hehe. a sure thing rite?? hehe.)

first time ever i received so many gifts and wishes in one week! touched definitely. and i really hope that i did do a good job throughout this year :) at least according to my DAP? haha.